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fun with dolls

2010-01-19T17:52:00.002-05:00

Fwd: [Girl Doll]

2010-01-18T17:00:00.000-05:00

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when my neice was just shy of one year old...

2010-01-15T16:08:00.001-05:00

7/4/07 when I originally uploaded - I'm going though old drafts and finishing everything!

If I were

2010-01-14T23:13:00.000-05:00

If I were a beginning, I would be: "I am..."

If I were a month, I would be: August

If I were a day of the week, I would be: Thursday

If I were a time of day, I would be: late night.

If I were a planet, I would be: Jupiter

If I were a season, I would be: Summer

If I were a sea animal, I would be: Jelly fish

If I were a direction, I would be: East

If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: king-size extra-squishy bed

If I were a sin, I would be: Internet quizzes say Lust

If I were a liquid, I would be: Hot tea

If I were a fraud/scare, I would be: Zombie virus!

If I were a gem, I would be: Sapphire

If I were a tree, I would be: Oak.

If I were a tool, I would be: vice

If I were a flower/plant, I would be: lilac

If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Thunderstorm

If I were a musical instrument, I would be: violin

If I were an animal, I would be: Tiger.

If I were an emotion, I would be: satisfaction

If I were a vegetable, I would be: broccolli

If I were a sound, I would be: wind

If I were an element, I would be: Fire.

If I were a car, I would be: Nissan 350 z OR late-50's cadillac eldorado

If I were a song, I would be: “Demolition Lovers" - MCR

If I were a food, I would be: Dinner - steak, corn on the cob, mashed potatoes, something green

If I were a place, I would be: Pisgah State Park

If I were a material, I would be: 350+ thread count egyptian cotton

If I were a taste, I would be: rock candy

If I were a scent, I would be: Clinique Happy, or a deep forest

If I were a religion, I would be: lol, I'd need a new one

If I were a sentence, I would be: I'm good.

If I were a body part, I would be: Eyes.

If I were a facial expression, I would be: smile

If I were a subject in college, I would be: psychology

If I were a shape, I would be: circle

If I were a quantity, I would be: non-quantifiable.

If I were a colour, I would be: a very rich blue

If I were a thing, I would be: photo frame

If I were a landmass, I would be: carribean island

If I were a book, I would be: a fantasy novel

If I were a monument, I would be: gravestone

If I were an artist, I would be: me, but better

If I were a collection of poems, I would be: written by Poe

If I were a landscape, I would be: Forest

If I were a watch, I would be: one of the ones I saw in the Carribean with the fdifferent sized&placed numbers

If I were God, I would be: Artemis

If I were a vowel, I would be: A

If I were a consonant, I would be: D

If I were a formula, I would be: a cookie recipe

If I were a Science, I would be: physics

If I were a theory, I would be: something psychological

If I were a famous person, I would be: a rockstar

If I were an electronic equipment, I would be: an mp3 player

If I were sport, I would be: football

If I were a movie, I would be: Nightmare Before Christmas

If I were a cartoon, I would be: Fairly Odd Parents, or Ed, Edd, and Eddy

If I were an explorer, I would be: viking

If I were a scientist, I would be: probably unknown

If I were a relation, I would be: respect

If I were a river, I would be: Nile

If I were intoxication, I would be: well, I'd be intoxication, wouldn't I? That's a dumb one.

If I were alone, I would be: chilling.

If I were a question, then I would be: Does it explode?

If I were a hobby, I would be: inconstant - or reading. is that a hobby?

If I were a habit, I would be: picking my skin

If I were in an atom, I would be: invisible.

If I were an end, I would be: non existent

If I were you, I would be: you. That's another dumb one.

Found this lying around. lol.

2010-01-14T02:04:00.000-05:00

Which Is Also the Title Of the Self-Help Book I'm Writing for Pubescent Girls

Girl (calmly): She's been having mood swings lately.
Older male friend: What?
Girl (calmly): Mood swings.
Older male friend: What?
Girl (angry): Mood swings, you ass bag!

--E Train

so, as it turns out, I am stll female.

2010-01-13T21:45:00.005-05:00

Ok, my thoughts on this a re pretty disjointed, so I'm just gonna write it and maybe fix it later. No promises.

My favorite color is blue, despite many 5 year old's protestations that "blue is a boy color." I love to play football and basketball. I panic at the thought of trying to buy nylons or "feminine napkins," because there are just so freaking many choices, and I just don't know how it all works. I rarely date, but have many male friends. I go to a strip club (and you, yes you, mention that on my facebook and I will unfriend you. Maybe block you. My parents go on there. Or maybe just delete the comment and be pissy, but you get the point.) I am comfortable in a "protector/provider" role in my life. I could probably kick the crap out of most people I know. When women do that whole, "you know what you did wrong" act, I am completely baffled. No, I don't know what I did wrong. Cleaning was invented by satan. None of that makes me feel badly about myself, as some in my life have implied it should.

But it used to. Do you know why I keep my blog in more "feminine" colors (though I do love purples), and use sames with prefixes/suffixes like "lady?"I started doing it when I was 11, because one day I found out that all my internet friends thought I was a guy. I cried when I first found out. I'd never been properly "girly," and many kids had been unkind about that. It seemed like a further statement - "you're just not right." (it might make things clearer to remeber that I was in Christian schools and the like, if you know some of the traditional religious views on gender roles and behaviors.) It continues to this day - if I don't make it obvious, they assume I'm male. Some have even thought that I was perhaps transgendered. But I don't really mind anymore. Sometimes I correct them, "actually, I'm female, but it's ok," sometimes I just ignore it because their assumptions don't really matter to me, sometimes I play with it, pretend that I am a guy, to see how differently I'm treated and reacted to. The differences can be huge.

that's all I really have on the subject, it was more of a musing than anything else, but I've been wanting to blog, and I finally found my writing prompt. Thanks, Rita

really want this piercing

2010-01-05T21:59:00.001-05:00

but the boss said no.

woohoo

2009-12-25T02:40:00.001-05:00

happy 4 year blogging anniversary to me, and happy Christmas to you all! Now, to sleep! (so santa can come)

holy crap

2009-11-11T21:54:00.002-05:00

...so, we leave cnn on all day at work, sound only, so I'm listening to Larry King live... and he's interviewing that beautyqueen or whatever who gave the ..."unpopular" answer to a question about gay marriage, andnow has a book called "still standing" ...
this bitch is either crazy or stupid.
He tried to ask her about her settlement and such involving being fired (I think) and all she'll say is that's confidential, and the real issue is they way the media victimizes conservative women, and Sarah Palin is her role model, and did I mention I wrote a book? **Giggle**
So he asked, when it came to light about your sex tape from when you were 17, and she interupts him that she's not interested in talking about that. He asks if she at least disclosed it to the miss america pagaent ppl, due to the morals clause in their contract, and she says... "that's not why I was fired. "
He knows that. That was not the question. Did she disclose it? "That is not why I was fired"
Repeat. He gives up.
Every question.... not the issue, I love Palin, I wrote a book. Giggle. (The giggle was unbelievably annoying)

Eventually, when he asked ANYTHING, she'd just respond with "That's confidential", eventually escalating to, "Larry, that's just not appropriate" (to a totally innocent question.) She even had a hissy fit and stopped talking to him when he took a phone call, cause apparently that was secretly against the rules.

Crazy.

Oh, by the way, women need to stick together, 'cause the media victimizes conservative women. But not liberal women. They have it easy. Everyone likes them. Yup. (I'm throwing this in with some other favorite ideas that I hear floating around... "black people can't be racist", "you can't understand opression like I do 'cause your ancestors owned slaves", etc. Sorry for the narrow focus there, those are just the 2 I hear most often. From uppermiddleclass types. And My family is french-irish and only in the US a few generations. ok, NOW I'm just bitching about pet peeves.)

Sorry about the amazing crappiness of this post, I'm typing while at work and listening to cnn

Don't you people use the internet?!

2009-11-03T20:10:00.003-05:00

It has been 12 minutes since polls closed... WHY DOES THE NEWS SITE STILL SAY 0% OF PRECINCTS REPORTING?! HMMM?!
For God's sake people there are machines and computers and internet for a reason... so that I can know the answer NOW.
**to tense to wait much longer**

no on 1, please!

--EDIT--
That 11 pound kitten I mentioned in my last post? Well, I left my cat loving mother to feed him while I was away. He is now a 14 pound kitten. IT WAS ONLY 9 DAYS!

what have I been up to?

2009-10-15T00:21:00.002-04:00

Not too much, really. Working, mostly. I've got a pretty good job, but financially life still sucks, so I'm gonna be looking for more...
Hmmm...oooo, my cats broke a window! don't know how, but they seem to have smashed out one of our window panes. It's two floors up, so it's not a security worry, but it is getting pretty damn cold outside...
Pluto-Panda is a big big baby now. He's an 11 pound kitty now... he was about 1 pound in the last pictures that I got to post! And he's sweet and loving, if a little annoying sometimes (he's only 7.5 months old though, that's normal.)
AND I'm going to Florida in a week and a half and an AFI concert in 3 days!
Good times...

INTERNET

2009-10-14T13:12:00.002-04:00

I have a comp that works again.... OH GOD THANK YOU!

blah

2009-07-14T16:23:00.002-04:00

computer still very, very nonfunctional. I am currently blogging from the library. The computer will probably never function again, taking all my pics and info with it to the computer abyss. And i hate this keyboard. sad day.

GRRRR

2009-06-02T01:04:00.001-04:00

I work at the front desk of a hotel these days. I love it.

Except when I have to check in the people doing the petition to undo the new gay marriage law.
"Ooooh, 204, that's 6, 6 is death and destruction, can I have a different room?"

my life sucks

2009-05-30T17:29:00.002-04:00

my brother just left to move to georgia without saying goodbye to me, because my mom forgot to tell me that he was leaving today and he didn't have time to come see me cause he'd planned on me being at my parents house

American Idol

2009-05-24T11:54:00.002-04:00

Holy crap... I don't usually follow American Idol... ok, I've NEVER followed American Idol, but the guy that didn't win? Adam Lambert?
Holy crap.
He's good.

Beginning of summer update

2009-05-22T21:47:00.003-04:00

So, I figured it was time for my semi-seasonal blog overhaul... it keeps me from getting bored. Damn fucking ADD.

Mostly just changed the colors, but I did a new "about me" quote stolen from despair.com, the demotivators section. Those things kill me, I hate pithy little motivational posters. Check it out, it's my desk top right now: Priorities.

Also worth noting: Blogging.

So, ya'll remember I quit my job? My new job is fabulous so far, and Bean has worked for them for one year next month, and still loves them (She's 23, and holding a job for more than 8 months set a record for her, to put that in perspective), so I'm feeling good here :D

Also, to go with the new job... new KITTEN!
He's my baby, made of love. I present to you, Pluto-Panda. (Pluto like the Roman god of death, and panda 'cause he's so cute and black and white. Hyphen because I couldn't just pick one. Half the time I call him Plu or Bubby)

And just because I can't stop laughing over it...

writers block?

2009-05-19T20:30:00.004-04:00

Can I claim writer's block for blogging? Can't seem to muster anything, but I really want to write!
Hmmm, off to look up some topics... livejournal has prompts...

"Do you ever do anything now that you swore you would never do when you were younger? What is it?"
BAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA
I don't think it's quite safe to answer that one.
What a stupid question though.
Ok, my serious answer: I have friends, and I give people second chances.
I didn't have many trustworthy friends when I was younger. I think it's common knowledge that children are, for the most part, naturally self serving and social climbers. It's a developmental stage. But I was sort of the one that got singled out as weaker... the gimpy gazelle, of sorts (pardon the random imagery).
When I moved two states away from those worthless cretins (I call them that because most of them are now in their 20's and acting EXACTLY THE SAME as middle and elementary school -_- ), I swore, 'no more friends.' I was fairly certain "real" friendship was a sort of fictional construct, similar to the relationships in romance novels.
Lucky me I screwed up ;)

AND alright, I'm outta here.

I love online quizzes way more than is reasonable

2009-05-02T16:37:00.002-04:00

So, these are pretty accurate.. not completely, sadly, but pretty damn close.
Some of the quizzes I'm just gonna save us all time and post links to them, because really, I only need to post the same results 1 or 2 times (taking 8 quizzes that tell me the same thing that I already knew about myself? that never gets old.)
So here we go, a whole new slew of personal info about me
In quiz result format. ;)

WHAT DOES YOUR BIRTHDAY SAY ABOUT YOU?

16 August 1986

Your date of conception was on or about 23 November 1985 which was a Saturday.

You were born on a Saturday
under the astrological sign Leo.
Your Life path number is 3.

Your fortune cookie reads:
You find beauty in ordinary things, do not lose this ability.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 2, 5 & 11.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 4, 7, 8 & 22.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446658.5.
The golden number for 1986 is 11.
The epact number for 1986 is 19.
The year 1986 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/9/1986 and ending 1/28/1987.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Tiger.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Salmon; your plant is Raspberry.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Paopy, the second month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 12 Av 5746.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 13 Av 5746.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.13.4.14 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 13 tun 4 uinal 14 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Saturday, 10 Dhi'l-Hijjih 1406 (1406-12-10).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 30 March 1986.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 4 May 1986.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 12 February 1986.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 18 May 1986.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 25 May 1986.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 4 October 1986.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 24 April 1986.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 11 February 1986.

As of 5/1/2009 9:00:20 PM EDT
You are 22 years old.
You are 273 months old.
You are 1,185 weeks old.
You are 8,294 days old.
You are 199,077 hours old.
You are 11,944,620 minutes old.
You are 716,677,220 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:
Vanessa Carlton (1980) Emily Robison (1972) Timothy Hutton (1960)
Angela Bassett (1958) Madonna (1958) James Cameron (1954)
Kathie Lee Gifford (1953) Lesley Ann Warren (1946) Eydie Gorme (1932)
Robert Culp (1930) Frank Gifford (1930) Ann Blyth (1928)
Fess Parker (1925) Charles Bukowski (1920) Menachem Begin (1913)

Top songs of 1986
That's What Friends Are For by Dionne & Friends Walk Like an Egyptian by Bangles
On My Own by Patti LaBelle & Michael McDonald Greatest Love of All by Whitney Houston
Stuck with You by Huey Lewis & the News Rock Me Amadeus by Falco
Kyrie by Mr. Mister Kiss by Prince & the Revolution
Papa Don't Preach by Madonna How Will I Know by Whitney Houston

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.24618395303327 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Sunday.
Your lucky number is 1 & 4.
Your ruling planet(s) is Sun.
Your lucky dates are 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th.
Your opposition sign is Aquarius.
Your opposition number(s) is 8.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 107 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 23 candles.

Those 23 candles produce 23 BTUs,
or 5,796 calories of heat (that's only 5.7960 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.63 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1986 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1986 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1986 in the US there were 2,400,000 marriages (10%) and 1,159,000 divorces (4.8%)
In 1986 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1986 the population of Australia was approximately 16,138,769.
In 1986 there were approximately 243,408 births in Australia.
In 1986 in Australia there were approximately 114,913 marriages and 39,417 divorces.
In 1986 in Australia there were approximately 114,981 deaths.

Your birth flower is GLADIOLA

Your birthstone is Peridot

The Mystical properties of Peridot

Peridot is used to help dreams become a reality.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Sardonyx, Diamond, Jade

Your birth tree is

Cedar, the Confidence

Of rare beauty, knows how to adapt, likes luxury, of good health not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, determined, impatient, wants to impress others, many talents, industrious, healthy, optimism, waiting for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

There are 238 days till Christmas 2009!
There are 251 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing gibbous.

THE ULTIMATE PURITY EXAM 2.0
**NOTE** - for clarity, this measures purity, so the percentages are percentage pure in that category. That might be really obvious, I dunno, I'm overtired.

Your Ultimate Purity Test 2.0 Score Is...
	Your Score:	Average For All Users	Average For All Bisexual Moderate Single Pink-Skinned 19 to 25-Year old Females (47 total)
Dating	34.62%	34.26%	24.06%	Dated seriously
Self-Lovin'	40.91%	60.76%	50.32%	When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself
Shamelessness	83.87%	77.32%	67.4%	Has yet to see self in mirror
Sex Drive	64.29%	75.01%	65.81%	A fool for love, but not always
Straightness	40.74%	39.2%	26.99%	Experienced, but with room to grow
Gayness	20.37%	77.82%	46.1%	Makes Dr. Frank-n-Furter look tame
Dominant	83.33%	86.54%	83.97%	Afraid to cross at "Don't Walk" signs
Submissive	92.06%	86.86%	80.89%	Submits to no one... almost
Fucking Sick	74.49%	89.74%	84.19%	Dipped into depravity
Total Score	62.74%	73.62%	63.35%
Take The Ultimate Purity Test 2.0 and see how you match up! (By The Ferrett)

This one was fun, but I'm just giving the link, because it gets redundant if your still reading at this point - http://kleingridonline.com/

There were more, but their links don't work anymore :(

todays theme song, guess why?

2009-04-17T16:05:00.000-04:00

laughed so damn hard

2009-03-09T21:42:00.003-04:00

I will warn you that this is all about the Disney movie Aladdin...

So, I'm reading through a forum call "it Just Bugs Me" on tv tropes, laughing at all the ppl whining about the little flaws and logic gaps and plot holes in frikkin disney movies, when I come across a raging debate about whether or not Genie ever granted Aladdin's first wish ("Make me a prince"), the problem being that late in the movie he is exposed as being NOT a prince. Theoretically, Geinie owes Al a wish. Others feel that the wish was sufficiently granted in that all would have been well had Jafar not exposed him. The question of 'well, if he's not a prince, where'd he get that parade?' gets brought up, leading to the thoughts that MAYBE Genie can bring life from nothing, so PERHAPS he created a kingdom for Al to be prince of... all this silliness caps off (for me) in the quote -

Maybe he did. Perhaps there's a kingdom out there somewhere that's sitting around going,"Where the fuck is Ali? He's been gone for AGES!"

Very Not Cool

2009-03-03T21:47:00.003-05:00

My poor neighbor, Sweety* (names changed 'cause I always change the names, you know that), she's young, cute, and just a little thing, and all these ASSHOLES that live around here are giving her crap. She's got people just showing up at her apartment and kinda bullying their way in, people making her nervous on the streets, and NOW some random guy "from the building next door "(he says) just SHOWS UP, and stands outside her door. We don't have peepholes or chains on our doors, just our knob locks and bolt locks. She would look under her door, and see his feet. She could hear him come up, but he didn't even knock or say anything. Now, I gave her pepper spray after the first guy bothered her, and she had that out and called the cops, and they took 20 minutes to show up! (the dispatcher didn't believe her, I think. "You're 19 and you live alone with your son?" she says) Worse, the guy was still there when the cops showed. I think they arrested him for something (unrelated) but damn, that's not cool! I wish she'd called me so I at least knew what was happening, she's literally across the hall from me.

...are they serious?

2009-02-21T17:51:00.002-05:00

I just encountered the headline "Why Ordinary People Murder Their Families." While I did not read this article, I do have something to say about that headline:
HINT: THEY DON'T

Even if we're only looking at this from a statistical, non-psychological point of view, THEY DON'T.
For pete's sake.

Also, I went to a fiddling workshop today. It was very fun, and the girl who taught it was my age, nose ring like mine, funny bumper stickers on her car ("When Jesus said love your enemies, he probably meant don't kill them"), and she's a famous and accomplished fiddler (http://www.lissafiddle.com/). Like I said, TONS of fun. Two little problems though: the violin and the fiddle are THE EXACT SAME INSTRUMENT. The difference is stylistic. I am not a fiddler. I am a violinist. I like classical styling and sheet music. Apparently, I am not so good at "Here I'll play it now you play it." No sheet music. all by ear, VERY FAST. I sucked. But, frankly, a lot of the ppl there were a little weak on it, which is probably why they were there... to learn. That's why I went.
The other problem? Violins are very sensitive to issues like temperature and humidity. My violin it about 40 yrs old. At some point over the last several months, most likely today when I brought it outside into the cold, it cracked a little. I am sad, and desperately hoping it will be alright. But I forgot it in my mom's car, so I can't check... I hope she noticed!

lol and not so lol

2009-02-19T18:48:00.002-05:00

fun first, because that's way more important ;)

Just to waste some time:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, IPod, etc.)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For the first question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button twice.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...just type it in.

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

Opening Credits:
"Gypsies, Tramps and Thieves" - Cher
...I'm gonna keep my commentary to myself on that one...

Waking Up:
"Miss Independen"t - Kelly Clarkson

First Day at School:
"This Celluloid Dream" - AFI

Falling In Love:
"So Cold" - Breaking Benjamin
So far, my movie-life is a bitch...

Losing Virginity:
"Little Things" - Good Charlotte
LOL "To everyone who has ever been called a freak, this is for you"

Fight Song:
"Leader of the Pack" - Shangri Las
That's just... not a fight song. Just not.

Breaking Up:
"Jump Around" - House of Pain

Prom:
"The Killing Lights" - AFI
AFI gets most of the school related ones...
oooo brb... my dad loaded the hard drive from their old computer onto mine when theirs died (To retrieve the files, and now I get to keep it for storage space), so I have other peoples music and podcasts and crap on here, and it just tried to play a sermon at me.

Life:
OK, and we're back with... "Born of the Night" - Midnight Syndicate
Rock. On. Awesome.

Mental Breakdown:
"Hard Knock Life" - Annie
...don't mock my music.

Driving:
"Echo" - Trapt

Flashback:
"Tango Amoure" - Andrea Berg
Note that this song is not in English, thusly I have no idea what it's about. Besides love. But it's music, my choices are pretty much love or violence.

Getting Back Together:
"Fur Elise" - Beethoven

Wedding:
"She Hates Me" - Puddle of Mud
That bodes well...

Birth of a Child:
"Thank God I'm Pretty" - Emilie Autumn
O_o

Final Battle:
"Santeria" - Sublime
"daddy's got a new 45..."

Death Scene:
"Thnks Fr Th Mmrs" - Fall Out Boy
lol
ya know what the best part is? I totally just went through my playlist going, ok, write it down click twice write it down repeat... and got the right number of songs

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Less Funny:
So there was a dude who had a tv something or other (show? channel? the detail is escaping me) devoted to breaking down the stereo types about Muslims. Then his wife tried to divorce him, so he beheaded her.
TOTAL FAIL.

more personal less funny:

Lately, I've been noticing a lot of general anger towards christians, mainly in the blogs I've been browsing. I get why people frequently dislike the religion, I really do (example, my computer just tried to correct me into capitalizing "christians" but did not give a damn about capitalizing "muslims"), and at least one case I can recall is someone who was once a christian (not you, Rita/LT whatever I'm supposed to call you darling, you are marvelously fair on the matter) and seems to have a lot of anger towards it, probably from their experiences.

However, one other I can recall was a commenter on a blog who had plenty to say about "what the Bible says" but was, frankly, talking out his ass. Completely clueless on something he felt very comfortable running his mouth about. Normally, in these cases, I would politely offer a correction and some links to back up what I was saying, but as this was a conversation touching on not only religion but a bit of a touchy 'political' issue, I was concerned that speaking up would just start a fight. The seeming arrogance of the commenter also fed into this conclusion (look at me, sounding all formal, can't you tell I'm a little nervous even writing it here? I feel like the shy kid trying not to get bullied while people throw around rude or uneducated statements about her, not knowing she's listening... or not caring.).

The other side of it is that some ppl may have come away from that believing that authoritative voice, and I feel like I may have done myself and them a disservice by not speaking up.

My choices - let someone get away with sharing their ignorance (I realize I'm being a little harsh in some of my words, but I don't always have to play nice, I feel a little bit like I've been challenged), or speak up and possibly start a fight in plain view of intelligent people who's opinions I respect, even when I disagree. I still haven't decided which was the right choice.

love my mama

2009-02-08T21:47:00.003-05:00

This is not a bad story. Nothing bad happens to children in it or after it. Just some thoughts from me.

So, when I was six years old, I was chillin' with some local kids at one of their parents houses (At least, I think his kid was there, he had 2 of them...). I come home from this charming and popular dudes house and ask my mother to "never make me go there again." No reason, I just didn't like him and didn't want to be near him.
My mother, having always listened to her gut when it said "Stay away! Bad" or such to her, believed me that I would also know this feeling, and listened to me.

Fast forward 16 years and the invention of facebook. All of a sudden, some dude my mom's age, from my previous local, friends a whole bunch of my childhood buddies, and sends a friend request to me. I'm sittin here going, "who the hell is this dude? He freaks the hell outta me. Doesn't feel right. I'm gonna leave it unanswered for now." So, I go to my mom, "hey, do I know a ***** ****?" and she tells me the story.

All I can think is I don't know what this seemingly nice guy who is still loved by all the other kids my age did to freak me out, but it stuck, and I love my mama for listening and believing a crazy little girl. I'm almost never wrong when I get that feeling on people.

Time to move on, girls

2009-01-12T17:19:00.002-05:00

So, I was getting gas yeterday, and when it was done pumping I went in to get some sandwiches. I then remembered that I had not hung the nozzle back up, and I couldn't run my debit card inside till I did that. So I run outside to do so, but on my way out the door the bitch in front of me swings it back at me full force. It seemed pretty intentional, but I'm on cold meds, so I figured, 'huh, what a bitch, whatever.' Now, I get to my car, which she's parked right next to, and she's talking to her friends through the window, seemingly about me. I figure, cold meds = paranoid, and go about my business. I go back in, I pay, I come out and get in my car. This whole time they're watching me, and I'm trying to ignore them. It's definitly not paranoia anymore.
I get in my car,and they're right next to me, window rolled down, waiting for me to look. So I figure, what the hell, I'll see what this is about. They start going on about 'hey, Amber pointed you out, fancy seeing you here, have an AWEFUL night' and then speed off as I'm yelling, "I don't know who you are."

Today, I figured it out. Almost 24 hours later, as I was driving by the same gas station.
THEY'RE MY EX-BOYFRIEND'S SKANKY FRIENDS.
Ex-boyfriend from, I'm not kidding, 3 1/2 years ago.
I only met the "Amber" one once, and was left with the impression that she was as dumb as a rock, and the leader one that actually managed to talk to me was just filed away in my brain under "one of many local bleach-blonde, over make-uped skanks," So I didn't recognize them at first. And to the girl in the back seat who didn't have the guts to roll down the window? Coward.

And incidents like this, ladies and gentlemen, are one of many reasons I am reluctant to date right now. 3+ yrs later, and their friends still try to assault you.

winter driving

2009-01-10T21:48:00.002-05:00

Just a little something anyone who's driven in the snow before really ought to know: If your car/van/truck/whatever is on an ice patch, and you can't get it to go, TURN THE WHEEL. Especially if you're on a hill.

I've listened to no less than 3 separate vehicles try to just drive straight out of iced-up, on-street parking, up hill. IT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN. Sorry.
The last one? A cop was parked directly across from them for 5 minutes, and didn't even offer some advice. Douchebag. I went down after 10 minutes of spinning tire noise to tell them that if they just turned the wheel they'd get right out. THE GUY TRIED TO ARGUE WITH ME. At my insistence he tried it anyway. Slid right out.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have some locally made soda to drink, purchased from a locally owned candy shop, along with locally made chocolates and maple sugar candies.

reading other peoples local news...

2008-12-17T17:32:00.002-05:00

Makes me remember that there are douchebags everywhere. Just a thought. I'd have some more, probably similarly phrased thoughts if I was more certain of the situation, but I don't like to run my mouth about stuff I don't know about. Unlike some.

Not invited?

2008-12-16T17:15:00.002-05:00

DENTISTS ARE FROM HELL. 4 wisdom teeth removed. pain.

I went to look at your blog, handmaiden, and it says I'm not allowed. Is this temporary or for real? Just a curious girl asking

motherfucker

2008-11-28T20:32:00.001-05:00

dammit. Ya know it's winter when the first sand truck drives by,
(hint:in snow and ice, it is impossible to drive a regular car up the hill I live on. Too steep. Hence the swearing. Now I have to go the long way every damn time.)

Have I mentioned I'm not that fond of humanity?

2008-11-27T21:02:00.002-05:00

My thoughts today, taken from a satirical news site called The Onion, it's from late September '01, and I find it perfect and respectful. I hope that everyone I know and their families are all right.

On to the main post:

God Angrily Clarifies 'Don't Kill' Rule

NEW YORK—Responding to recent events on Earth, God, the omniscient creator-deity worshiped by billions of followers of various faiths for more than 6,000 years, angrily clarified His longtime stance against humans killing each other Monday.

"Look, I don't know, maybe I haven't made myself completely clear, so for the record, here it is again," said the Lord, His divine face betraying visible emotion during a press conference near the site of the fallen Twin Towers. "Somehow, people keep coming up with the idea that I want them to kill their neighbor. Well, I don't. And to be honest, I'm really getting sick and tired of it. Get it straight. Not only do I not want anybody to kill anyone, but I specifically commanded you not to, in really simple terms that anybody ought to be able to understand."

Worshiped by Christians, Jews, and Muslims alike, God said His name has been invoked countless times over the centuries as a reason to kill in what He called "an unending cycle of violence."

"I don't care how holy somebody claims to be," God said. "If a person tells you it's My will that they kill someone, they're wrong. Got it? I don't care what religion you are, or who you think your enemy is, here it is one more time: No killing, in My name or anyone else's, ever again."

The press conference came as a surprise to humankind, as God rarely intervenes in earthly affairs. As a matter of longstanding policy, He has traditionally left the task of interpreting His message and divine will to clerics, rabbis, priests, imams, and Biblical scholars. Theologians and laymen alike have been given the task of pondering His ineffable mysteries, deciding for themselves what to do as a matter of faith. His decision to manifest on the material plane was motivated by the deep sense of shock, outrage, and sorrow He felt over the Sept. 11 violence carried out in His name, and over its dire potential ramifications around the globe.

"I tried to put it in the simplest possible terms for you people, so you'd get it straight, because I thought it was pretty important," said God, called Yahweh and Allah respectively in the Judaic and Muslim traditions. "I guess I figured I'd left no real room for confusion after putting it in a four-word sentence with one-syllable words, on the tablets I gave to Moses. How much more clear can I get?"

"But somehow, it all gets twisted around and, next thing you know, somebody's spouting off some nonsense about, 'God says I have to kill this guy, God wants me to kill that guy, it's God's will,'" God continued. "It's not God's will, all right? News flash: 'God's will' equals 'Don't murder people.'"

Worse yet, many of the worst violators claim that their actions are justified by passages in the Bible, Torah, and Qur'an.

"To be honest, there's some contradictory stuff in there, okay?" God said. "So I can see how it could be pretty misleading. I admit it—My bad. I did My best to inspire them, but a lot of imperfect human agents have misinterpreted My message over the millennia. Frankly, much of the material that got in there is dogmatic, doctrinal bullshit. I turn My head for a second and, suddenly, all this stuff about homosexuality gets into Leviticus, and everybody thinks it's God's will to kill gays. It absolutely drives Me up the wall."

God praised the overwhelming majority of His Muslim followers as "wonderful, pious people," calling the perpetrators of the Sept. 11 attacks rare exceptions.

"This whole medieval concept of the jihad, or holy war, had all but vanished from the Muslim world in, like, the 10th century, and with good reason," God said. "There's no such thing as a holy war, only unholy ones. The vast majority of Muslims in this world reject the murderous actions of these radical extremists, just like the vast majority of Christians in America are pissed off over those two bigots on The 700 Club."

Continued God, "Read the book: 'Allah is kind, Allah is beautiful, Allah is merciful.' It goes on and on that way, page after page. But, no, some assholes have to come along and revive this stupid holy-war crap just to further their own hateful agenda. So now, everybody thinks Muslims are all murderous barbarians. Thanks, Taliban: 1,000 years of pan-Islamic cultural progress down the drain."

God stressed that His remarks were not directed exclusively at Islamic extremists, but rather at anyone whose ideological zealotry overrides his or her ability to comprehend the core message of all world religions.

"I don't care what faith you are, everybody's been making this same mistake since the dawn of time," God said. "The Muslims massacre the Hindus, the Hindus massacre the Muslims. The Buddhists, everybody massacres the Buddhists. The Jews, don't even get me started on the hardline, right-wing, Meir Kahane-loving Israeli nationalists, man. And the Christians? You people believe in a Messiah who says, 'Turn the other cheek,' but you've been killing everybody you can get your hands on since the Crusades."

Growing increasingly wrathful, God continued: "Can't you people see? What are you, morons? There are a ton of different religious traditions out there, and different cultures worship Me in different ways. But the basic message is always the same: Christianity, Islam, Judaism, Buddhism, Shintoism... every religious belief system under the sun, they all say you're supposed to love your neighbors, folks! It's not that hard a concept to grasp."

"Why would you think I'd want anything else? Humans don't need religion or God as an excuse to kill each other—you've been doing that without any help from Me since you were freaking apes!" God said. "The whole point of believing in God is to have a higher standard of behavior. How obvious can you get?"

"I'm talking to all of you, here!" continued God, His voice rising to a shout. "Do you hear Me? I don't want you to kill anybody. I'm against it, across the board. How many times do I have to say it? Don't kill each other anymore—ever! I'm fucking serious!"

Upon completing His outburst, God fell silent, standing quietly at the podium for several moments. Then, witnesses reported, God's shoulders began to shake, and He wept.

quotes

2008-10-02T19:55:00.002-04:00

"Divide each difficulty into as many parts as is feasible and necessary to resolve it."
-- Rene Descartes

"I'm afraid of losing my obscurity. Genuineness only thrives in the dark. Like celery."
-Aldous Huxley

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." - Robert Frost

"God is in the rain." - V for Vendetta

"When it gets dark enough you can see the stars." - Lee Salk

The truth will set you free, but first it will make you miserable.
~James A. Garfield

"A little girl can be sweeter (and badder) oftener than anyone else in the world. She can jitter around, and stomp, and make funny noises that frazzle your nerves, yet just when you open your mouth she stands there demure with that special look in her eyes. A girl is Innocence playing in the mud, Beauty standing on its head, and Motherhood dragging a doll by the foot."
~Alan Marshall Beck

"Boys are found everywhere-on top of, underneath, inside of, climbing on, swinging from, running around or jumping to. Mothers love them, little girls hate them, older sisters and brothers tolerate them, adults ignore them and Heaven protects them. A boy is Truth with dirt on its face, Beauty with a cut on its finger, Wisdom with bubble gum in its hair and the Hope of the future with a frog in its pocket."
~Alan Marshall Beck

"The best way to get rid of temptation is to give in to it."

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But, then one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer, to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love, to be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy, therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness."
~Woody Allen

"Do not assume that she who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. Her life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, she would never have been able to find these words.”

~Rainer Maria Rilke

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real “Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

~Rainer Maria Rilke

Just for Sol/Morning Star (read comments 2 posts back for context)

2008-09-29T20:40:00.003-04:00

ICON mania!

2008-09-28T12:37:00.011-04:00

I just wanted a new profile icon, but dammit, they're all so good...

dumbasses all around

2008-09-27T23:35:00.003-04:00

Little Bean, my niece, is very sick right now. She has a fever between 102 and 104, which we can occasionally control with meds (fevers over 103 can cause seizures and brain damage). She was doing ok at first, keeping the temps down and all, but then she spent a day with her father and his parents. They didn't give her any meds on the grounds that "fevers are good for you." We just spent half the night in the hospital because of that. The doctor was furious with him. I was just relieved when she said that she could tell that Little Bean was well adjusted, bright, and had a lot of love and good things in her life. Otherwise we'd probably have been talking to DHS.

Got a call from the landlady today. Crazy ex-roomie wants her security deposit back, and refuses to pay any more rent. Mostly, I want to say "fine, fuck you, I will be happier if I never see your ugly face again." But I don't wanna get financially fucked over. Sometimes I guess what I "mostly" want is to take her to the field out back of her house and kick the shit out of her. But I try not to be violent like that anymore. :)

Top it all off, my dental issues are worse than ever. My teeth are soft, because I had to take a lot of medications as a child. Their crumbling is practically inevitable. I've been dealing with the large chip nearly halving my front teeth for years, but now i have dental insurance, and can get it fixed, and get my wisdom teeth removed. They're pretty bad too. Just one problem: I'm terrified of the dentist. and stitches, gonna make it hard to get the teeth removed. So I put off calling to make an appointment. Then a chunk of one of my wisdom teeth. Dammit. Now I've gotta call.

LOL

2008-09-20T15:30:00.001-04:00

I try to keep my political opinions to myself around here, but this was just too much for me. :D

experience project

2008-08-26T17:43:00.000-04:00

check it out, new links ( psst, they're on the right.)

"Dance, Fucker, Dance"

2008-08-25T21:49:00.003-04:00

For those who don't know, I love the new Offspring song, hence this post's title.
Second order of business, I type like crap all of a sudden. Please forgive any weird typos.

Lastly, HEY, I'M BACK!

Let's tell this story in a nice, chronologically linear manner, shall we?

I got a new job a couple weeks ago, full time stock person at American Eagle. Sweet job, sweet discount, great co-workers (my manager is a gorgeous, intelligent, funny, smart rich man who drives my favorite car. Obviously this means he is gay AND married.)
A few days after I get this job, I find out that my friend and roommate Mesa is a crazy person. I mean, damn. I'm known this girl for 8 years, I knew she had her issues, I knew she told stupid little lies all the time. But this was downright phenomenal. She's been telling us and everyone else who will listen, for 2 years now, about her fiance, Jay. I discover, she and Jay broke up 3 YEARS AGO. Like that isn't enough, she's been signing her emails to him as if they were from out other roommate Bean or from her cousin, emails about how she was in the hospital, how she broke her arm, how everyone was so bad to her and her parents abused her and so on. Not a word of it true. This girls been going as far as to buy herself and my niece gifts saying they were from him. The real hell broke loose when I told Jay what was going on (he lives several hours away). She had moved out withing three days of that.

Next thing I know, she's telling me that she's gonna take me to court for money I owe her, and for going through her room, and for opening her mail. The next day, her brother's screaming and swearing at me that they're gonna sue us for her deposit because she paid the whole thing, and that they're taking the water filter (they took the doorknob to her room and the curtain rod that wasn't even hers). To put those statements into perspective, I owed her no money, she may still owe me money; I caught her going through my room, but never went through hers; I did not open her mail, and even if I had I was secondary on the account she was referring to and therefore had a legal right to it to my understanding; sue me all you want, I have the bank records to prove that I paid her back for anything beyond her share of the deposit, and I can probably prove the damn water filter is ours too, you useless bastard.
I actually had to call my father to oversee the move, because it was that and hope it shut her brother up that he was there, or call the cops and have him removed. I will not be threatened and insulted in my own home thank you, and my defenses are my father, police, or lead pipe and pepper spray (girl's gotta know how to fend for herself), take your pick.

Well, with the way the whole thing's gone down, we've decided not to let her out of the lease. She remains responsible for a third of the remaining lease, and has actually agreed to pay it. I have not been sued, either. Good thing, considering I can prove she was using my name and birthday to open 'rewards' and 'points' type accounts. Hint, dumbass: that's identity theft, and illegal.
Now we just need to get her to pay her damn share of the rent.

THEN MY COMPUTER BROKE.
BECAUSE I REALLY NEEDED THAT ONE MORE THING

ok, I'm better.
Happy belated birthday to me.

migraines = everything sucks

2008-07-14T21:47:00.003-04:00

At least tonight I can take my meds for it.
Speaking of, I'm back on my lexapro. It feels like a defeat, but I know it's really a victory because I saw what was happening and took care of myself before it got out of control.
Or something like that.

So, I'm having a bit of a time finding pictures for the Local Adventure that I'm planning, so I figured in the mean time, I'll supply you (you know who you are ;) ) with pics from previous local adventures (More on my flickr account, see link at right, look under sets 3/6 and beachy) -

If you do swing by my flickr account, just be warned that nature isn't the only 'local beauty' (apparently I feel witty tonight) featured on there...
I may be the only one on there to never appear in my underwear or swimsuit...

The internet....

2008-07-11T20:11:00.002-04:00

always comes back to Dr. Who and Harry Potter.
frequently Joss Whedon, occasionally some popular anime.
But ALWAYS HP and DW.

Icon examples to follow. LOTS and LOTS and BUNCHES of icons.
Just a sample of my nerd-icon collection.
Squee.

PS - bonus points if you can identify (1)the icon that's only related to this subject in my head, (2) The crossover icons

"In all fairness, we got you first."

2008-07-05T22:31:00.004-04:00

So, Tomorrow I was scheduled for clashing mandatory shifts at both my jobs.
Crap, huh?

I was discussing it with a boss at the job with what is usually the most flexible schedule, and she wasn't backing down (I'd rather be there anyway). See the quote in my title.

I did manage to convince my other boss that she needed to change my shift because, well, they had me first.

And despite Boss #2's bad attitude, I FEEL SO LOVED ;)

no, I actually feel like kicking Boss#2 for repeatedly changing my schedule without notice.

On a different note, I was driving Bean home from work tonight, and LITTLE BABY RACCOONS ran out in front of my car. THEY ALMOST DIED. I was very upset, I think I was screaming "oh my god little babies" or something of the sort.
But they were ok.

Well well well

2008-06-28T08:57:00.002-04:00

Look at me, all fancy, using draft.blogger.com to make a post... ;)

too bad it kinda SUCKED. I coulda made this post in the regular one in half the time.

Beginning to feel like a safari

2008-06-28T08:40:00.003-04:00

I seriously just want to know what the frig the freakish plants overtaking our front steps are, but can you find them on the internet? Nooooooo. That would be too easy. Particularly the spiny, unfriendly looking one, but I'm pretty concerned over the fact that the 8 FOOT TALL one seems to be suffering some sort of bug problem. IT'S FLAT AGAINST THE HOUSE. I don't want to deal with an infestation because the building manager's too lazy to deal with them himself (assuming he ever shows up again).

Stupid internet.

updating? Too lazy

2008-06-26T16:57:00.002-04:00

So I was going to update this, add a 'blog list' and some favorites, maybe a new feature or two, figure out why my weather pixie isn't working, etc.

But I'm just not feeling motivated. Huh.

La Kermesse is tonight... big local event, fireworks and block party and crap. Closing the damn street is a pain in the ass though.

Speaking of the street, turns out some super-skank we went to high school with lives on this street too. dammmit.

GARRR

2008-06-23T21:57:00.002-04:00

Ok, with that out of the way, holy freaking God, what the hell is all this shit?
My 17ish cousin is pregnant, Bean's brother's girlfriend is pregnant, they're both drug addicts, everybody's working all the time, Melisa's freaking crazy for 1 week every month (I mean well beyond what is expected or normal), and this last time she went and hurt herself. Now, on top of everything, our stupid little 'malt beverages' that we keep in the fridge are "mysteriously disappearing." Someone's drinking them and all she has to say is "I don't drink alcohol."

So, I repeat, GARRR

LOL

2008-06-22T21:39:00.000-04:00

THE RULES OF BEDROOM GOLF

1. Each player shall furnish his own equipment... normally one club and two balls.

2. Play on a coarse must be approved by the owner of the hole.

3. Unlike outdoor golf, the object is to get the club in the hole, not the balls.

4. Course owners reserve the right to restrict the length of the club to avoid damage to the hole.

5. For most effective play, the club should have a firm shaft. Course owners are permitted to check shaft hardness before play begins.

6. The object of the game is to take as many strokes as necessary until course owner is satisfied that the play is complete. Failure to do so may result in being denied permission to play the same course again.

7. It is considered bad form to begin playing the hole immediately upon arrival at the course. The experienced player will normally take time to admire the entire course, with special attention to well formed bunkers.

8. Players are cautioned not to mention other courses they have played or are currently playing to the owner of the course being played. Upset course owners have been know to damage a player's equipment for this reason.

9. Players are encouraged to have proper rain gear along, just in case.

10. Players should not assume a couse is in shape for play at all times. Some players may be embarrassed if they find the course to be temporarily under repair. Players are advised to be extremely tactful in this situation. More advanced players will find alternate means of play when this is the case.

11. Players should assure themselves that their match has been properly scheduled, particularly when a new course is being played for the first time. Previous players have been known to become irate if they discover someone else playing what they consider a private course.

12. Players are advised to obtain the course owners permission before attempting to play the back nine.

13. Slow play is encouraged: however, players should be prepared to procede at a quicker pace, at least temporarily, at the course owners request.

14. It is considered outstanding performance, time permitting. to play the same hole several times in one match.

15. The course owner will be the sole judge of who is the best player.

16. Players are advised to think twice before considering membership at a given course. Additional assessments may be levied by the course owner and the rules are subject to change without any warning whatsoever. For this reason, many players prefer to continue playing several different courses.

the best tourist ever

2008-05-22T18:14:00.004-04:00

"Wolf whistle works, woman strips"

GOOSE ON THE RUN
So, the other day, I'm just driving along, and right there, in the middle of town, I see a goose*.
INSERT PIC OF GOOSE HERE, CAUSE BLOGGER WON'T LET ME

Just chillin there. Domestic variety goose, no less.
We've concluded (Bean and myself,) that he is a goose on the run. From the law. Because he killed a man with his bare beak.
Just thought I'd share.

*No, that is not the goose I saw, I wasn't able to get a pic. **sad**

Jesus believes in birthdays

2008-05-20T21:35:00.002-04:00

So, I set myself a goal of blogging once a week, and I've spent so much time thinking about what to blog, that I haven't actually done it! Silly me. So, just a random babble for now.

Oh, and if anything in here is inordinately weird, it's because I took a full dose of my migraine meds, and I'm a little loopy.

I've been working two jobs, stock/sales associate at my usual clothing store, and engraver/sales associate at a lovely little place called Things Remembered, and I'm looking at upcoming promotions at both of them (because I am that cool). I am a little worried about the increased hours (if all goes according to plan, 35-75 a week), But I'
m trying to have a little faith in myself.

I'm going to be applying to go to LPN courses starting in November, and I'm hoping that all goes well.

My next goal to work on is making a list of 100 things about myself. It's always fun and challenging. A high school teacher got me started on doing it every couple years.

Hmmm, finally, I guess, I've signed up for postcrossing.com (check it out (sorry, too medicated to make a proper link, might edit it later)). It's cool. Sending postcards to people all over the world, getting postcards all the time. Fun fun.

100 things:
1: When i get too excited about something, my limbs go numb.

LOL

2008-04-29T18:28:00.001-04:00

Star Wars themed month culminates in me finding this image:

...I thought I'd already posted this!

2008-04-14T21:17:00.004-04:00

So I dyed my hair...And it was an adventure.

Some of you may recall, I started with blue-black, recently with blue highlights.
Then I decided, 'Hey, I want red hair.'

So I bought myself some color remover.

Oh. Crap. THAT can't be good. Maybe it's supposed to come out that way?
So I apply my red dye.
What a pretty color.

It was pretty in the box anyway. Crude. My hair is orange.
So I go buy a different dye.
This brand rocks, so I apply my 3rd box color in 3 days.

ROCK ON. I'm a red head.

Dork...

2008-03-27T13:43:00.006-04:00

Soooo... I was on the phone, merrily chatting away, when a call came in on the other line. Not recognizing the number, I ignored it. I figured, I'll call them back when I'm done.

When I was done, I called them back. I was greeted with a cheerful "Hi Starry!"

I had no idea who I was talking to, but figured, maybe if I keep talking I'll figure it out.... Well, I didn't. I did however, agree to go bowling with her tomorrow night. Because I panic on the phone. P

Luckily, Bean, had the number in her phonebook, and it was an old highschool friend. But I am such a dork.

And now, pictures from my life :D

My niece and our little kitten:

My niece and friend:

My niece and her mama:

The back of my head:

View from our balcony on a foggy night:

Ice that banged on our window when the wind blew:

View from my window:

And a little video joy:

sun, blue filter

2008-03-26T01:30:00.000-04:00

Once Upon A Time...

2008-03-23T23:16:00.008-04:00

on November 2, '06, I was challenged to post 8 previously unknown facts about myself... I want to do it again!
1)I can reach one of my arms furthur behind my back than the other

2)I am glad to work multiple jobs to be able to care for the people I have taken as my family

3)I am happy again

4)I bargain shop like it's a fucking sport ;P

5)All my sheets and blankets are 300+ thread count, egyptian or pyma cotton, no blends

6)I treat 'being normal/fitting in' like it's an academic pursuit... watch others, memorize the 'appropriate' things to say and ways to act, attempt to mimic

7)I love being 'different'

8)I still have my childhood teddy bear

Now a little thought from 9-2-06,

Soooo, pretty much, I'm back :D

WOOOHOOOO

2008-02-06T19:29:00.000-05:00

Well, my best friends and I are in our own apartment now! Its a lovely little 4 bedroom we can just barely afford. But it's totally awesome anyway!

**goes away doing the happy dance**

befuddled

2007-10-19T22:39:00.000-04:00

so... I have a myspace. I have for years. That's just background info for the thing that's bugging me:

My ex (from OVER 2 YEARS AGO) keeps visiting it. nearly EVERY DAY.
He never messages me or anything though. I don't think he knows that I know.
It's kinda freaking me out.
Dunno what to do.

I MISS THE INTERNET

2007-08-18T22:31:00.000-04:00

I've been away far too long! Gerard Way (you all remember, the rockstar I'm stalking?) got engaged... and then unengaged... and then kissed some 19 yr old girl from some band... and I MISSED IT ALL. Craziness.

(Well, now that I've hopefully amused the crap out of all of you ;) )

Happy b-day to me.... 8/16, I turned 21. With very little partying dammit. Designated driver at my own damn party that no one but my two best friends came to. (Some ppl had very good excuses though...0_O threats of bodily harm from crazies!)

fun with excessive time off

2007-07-04T13:48:00.000-04:00

On a sadder note, my best friend's rat (1.5 years old), that I care for, has a large mammary tumor. She probably won't be ok.

And my hamster Oliver seems to be in a rather fragile condition, due to her age(5 years) and possible tumors (harder to tell on her).

And one of my elderly desert mice has died, and the other one is very desperate to play with anyone, something she wasn't interested in when she had a companion.

They are all very old, so none of this is unexpected, and they've had good lives, so it's not heartbreaking, but it's pretty much all that's going on right now.

Happy 4th of July.

2007-06-25T20:53:00.000-04:00

Not te most recent videos (from May), she walks almost on her own now, but they're what's on my computer, and I wanted to try this new video upload thing. She could walk completely if she wanted to, but she's a little nervous about it still. She likes to hold on with one hand. Too cute ;)

Good Lord I Love Pirates.

2007-06-01T20:40:00.001-04:00

Hoist the Colours High.

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the Colors high.
Heave ho,
thieves and beggars,
never shall we die.

The king and his men
stole the queen from her bed
and bound her in her Bones.
The seas be ours
and by the powers
where we will we'll roam.

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the Colors high.
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
never say we die.

Some men have died
and some are alive
and others sail on the sea–
with the keys to the cage...
and the Devil to pay
we lay to Fiddler's Green!

The bell has been raised
from it's watery grave...
Do you hear it's sepulchral tone?
We are a call to all,
pay head the squall
and turn your sail toward home!

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the Colors high...
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
never say we die.

Food poisoning?! For a week?!

2007-05-06T22:31:00.000-04:00

That concert I was all excited about? Cancelled. They got food poisoning. A WEEK AGO! They must be so sick... awwww.

They need to reschedule... or I'll hunt them down or something. ;)

But the tour doesn't end until July... so maybe they can come back then? :(

Invader Zim - "And keep it down, do you wanna wake up the whole planet?"
Gr - "I do!"

And on an actually sad note -

Pepper got very sick, we think she hit her head too hard running from a dog Bean's brother brought into the house. We tried and tried, but there was nothing that we could do. She was put to sleep April 19. She'll always be loved and remembered.

So right now, my happy thoughts are Spiderman 3 (totally awesome), 28 weeks later (28 days later was totally awesome), Shrek the Third (like I even need to tell you about Shrek), Bug (looks cheesy but fun), Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End ("Why should I sail with any of you? 4 of you tries to kill me. One succeeded!"), and both the Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban movie and the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows book.

girliness

2007-04-15T21:53:00.000-04:00

so, being largely french and irish, I'm the kind of girl who needs to tweeze her eyebrows. If I want to have two of them, anyway.

I recently decided to go even beyond that, and try waxing my upper lip. Everyone has certain levels of hair, but when you're pale and that hair is dark, it doesn't work out so well.

So I bought myself a little waxing kit that even had a pain killer cream in it to apply before waxing.

Currently, my upper lip is numb, swollen to a ludicrous level, and bleeding.

But it worked (mostly).

You know what that translates to?
I'll do it again as soon as I need to.

Damn girliness.

oh just peachy

2007-04-08T12:47:00.000-04:00

So I'm trying to update my flickr account, watching comedy, when the least funny commercial EVER comes on. An aspca commercial about animals being abused and needing rescue, with Sarah Mclaghlin's (Or however you sell it) "Angel" for the music.
Now I'm crying. Great. I know I post about this over and over, but WHY THE FUCK would you hurt an animal? Why? And then there's neglect... if you don't want to take care of the animal, than you don't want the animal and should give it to someone who does. No animal should be made to suffer just so someone can say "I've got a dog/cat/rabbit/etc."

Now, I'm going back to my flickr updating. I'm going to look at pics of my rescued rodents and my Squeaky (dumped out of a car and left in the woods till we found him) and Pepper (We don't know how she came to be in the condition she was in, but it was bad when we found her.)

lol, yeah, this would mean me

2007-04-08T00:48:00.000-04:00

YIPEE

2007-04-07T09:12:00.000-04:00

LOS ANGELES (AFP) - Producers of the next "Indiana Jones" movie are waiting to hear if former 007 star Sean Connery will return as the main hero's father, the trade magazine Variety reported Friday.

Directors George Lucas and Steven Spielberg, set to begin work on the fourth installment of the film franchise in June along with star Harrison Ford, are trying to coax Connery, 76, out of retirement for the film, Variety said.

Connery, who has been in no films since 2003, said he'd consider returning if he liked the script, the magazine reported.

Ford, 64, returns as the daring archaeologist. The movie co-stars Shia LaBeouf, 20, and Cate Blanchett, 37, likely as Indy's son and love interest respectively.

Producers have kept the plot and even title of "Indiana Jones 4" a tight secret, but Paramount Pictures plans to release the film in May 2008, Variety said.

Happy happy person

2007-03-11T18:23:00.000-04:00

Harry Potter book on pre-order, MCR tickets purchased, new Harry Potter movie coming out soon, the trailer for Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End comes out March 19, they just re-released Peter Pan, I've got a new 'final cut' of Alexander, I've got the new Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and I finally purchased a Neil Gaiman book.

And for those who don't know, that list involves a whole lotta gorgeous ppl I may or may not ever meet...

Happy, Happy person.

disaster! --- Oh Thank God!

2007-02-11T13:48:00.000-05:00

So, I bought a cheapy mp3 player. Really cheap. Walgreens brand cheap.
Yesterday, I loaded it into my files.
It's extremely flawed uninstaller proceeded to delete all my files.
I cried so hard I puked. 4+ years worth of files (family pictures and things I made being the most upsetting to lose. Music I can replace, I still have the list of songs.), and only some were backed up (I know, I did a dumb thing.)

Today, I made it it's own file, away from important things, and tried again.
And ran some programs I had stored in my back up file...
One had made a back up of all my image files.
Now I'm so happy and relieved I almost cried.

I lost a couple things, and I'll miss the few pics I lost... but mainly, all I have to replace is my music.

I'm off to dig up 30+ hours of music now, if you'll excuse me... ;)

(the pain in the ass... an mp3 player that deletes all my music.)

OH! I promised to tell you about my new icon.
It's pretty straight forward... I got arrested. :D
I never got a letter notifying me about some crappy court date for something rather lame, so I never showed up to the court date. As I'm sure most of you are aware... that's illegal.
So a warrent goes out, etc, nothing happens.
Until I get pulled over for my car inspection being out and they run my license.
My parents aren't amused.
I only made it as far as the room where they take your prints and info, not even to a holding cell before Dad came and bailed me out.
I've got pics of the marks from the handcuffs though (taken 2 hours later P )
I just feel like I didn't really need to be handcuffed... Or made to stand around in my jeans, tshirt, and socks in a cold area. Blah.

As an added bonus... my car insurance had expired the week before.

AND less than a month later... I get pulled over for running a stop sign. Which I didn't do, and I'm pretty sure the fucking state trooper handled the stop in an improper, possible illegal way... so I get to fight that one. Woo...more court dates... blah

(for anyone wondering why arrested=smiley... I've have this strange fascination with doing things I'm not supposed to. Getting kicked out, harrassing customers at an intellectual level they can't keep up with, driving with a 3 month out of date car inspection sticker, getting arrested....)

More on this coming soon...

2007-01-11T23:45:00.000-05:00

Song for the New Year

2007-01-01T23:54:00.000-05:00

I must make a choice
A tough decision
Listen to my voice
Should I give in
To temptation, admiration
One leads to myself
The other some one else
Just an empty shell
Just an empty shell
It's harder than it seems
When you're told that
All your hopes and dreams
Are yours to hold if
You just give them
What's expected
Something they can sell
Put upon a shelf
That I am not for sale
I am not for sale
[Chorus:]I here a voice inside
It's grown into a scream
I'm not the next of them
I am the first of me
'cause I can't live the lie
I am just what you see
I'm not the next of them
I am the first of me

If I can't refuse
The price they offer
I am sure to lose
And I will suffer
Sell my soul to make a profit
All I have to do
Is make believe it's true
That's something I can't do
That's something I can't do
[Chorus]

So when the waiting's gone
It's time to face the truth
You know your good enough
Deep down inside of you
You've finally woken up
If only just to prove
You are born to lead the way
And be the first of you

-Hoobastank, "First of Me"

"Christmas in Maine" - Bob Marley, comedien

2006-12-27T02:24:00.000-05:00

Let's go to the Maine Mall and fight with the crowd.
Let's go to Mark's showplace and scream "take it off" really loud.
Let's freeze our ass off in the sub zero cold.
Let's paw through the clothes at macy's and make the ladies refold.
It's Christmas,
(it's Christmas in maine wop wop wop)
Christmas in maine, folks.
Get out your shoe clubs.
Buy your cord of wood.
Fill your oil tank.
Save your money.
Let's watch'em light the tree in Momument Square.
Let's hope your wife shaves her legs this month or at least uses nair.
Let's hope dad doesn't lose his last tooth biting into apple pie.
Let's meet a nice girl in Ogunquit and hope she's not a guy.
It's Christmas,
(it's Christmas in maine wop wop wop)
Christmas in maine, folks.
Boy, oh boy.
Can't wait to get that orange in my stocking.
Boy, what a thrill that is.
Save your money folks.
It costs 48 bucks to wrap a present nowadays.
What am I supposed to do?
Roll quarters all year long just so I can buy some Old Spice for my father?
Christmas in Maine, aw man.
I can't wait till Easter comes, Halloween,Thanksgiving, anything but Christmas.
It just tires me out so much.
Presents, everybodies singin'.
Aw, c'mon folks.
Let's watch the Portland Pirate's kick some ass.
Get really, really hammered and go to midnight mass.
Let's hope school is cancelled every single day because of snow.
Let's gag Jolly John so we don't have to hear another "hi ho!"
It's Christmas,
(it's Christmas in maine wop wop wop)Christmas in maine, folks.
So get out your shovels.
Get ready to be plowed in 8 times a day.
Let's take a dive to Northern Maine, past the college of Husson's
Let's drive on even further where the people fuck their cousins.
Let's buy a nice center piece from Dodge the florist.
Let's think about summer and those stupid fuckin' tourists.
It's Christmas,
(it's Christmas in maine wop wop wop)
Christmas in maine, folks.
I hope you salt your driveway.
You don't wanna take a spill and end up in Maine Med with a broken ass.
It's Christmas in Maine.
Don't put to many bulbs on your tree, folks... CMP will be over.
Let's go down to Portland's Old Port and drink a case of beer.
Let's thank God this season only comes but once a year.

Merry Christmas

2006-12-25T11:10:00.000-05:00

...and happy blogging birthday to me!

so...

2006-12-05T01:02:00.000-05:00

Most, if not all of you know that I adore the band My Chemical Romance and am somewhat stalkerish of the lead singer, Gerard Way. I'm tempted to throw in all sorts of personal details about his life, but I'll spare you.

I also rather like the band The Used, but don't talk about it as often because... well... I find them embarrassingly emo, despite their awesomeness (I'm very sorry about the intellectual quality of this post, but everyone needs to be silly now and then). The lead singer of The Used, Bert McCraken or however you spell it, is not so hot, but very cool. And very talented. So I like him. But I do not stalk him.

Now, MCR and The Used worked together for a while, recording and doing a tour. At some point in this tour, Bert and Gerard kissed on stage. Can I find a picture of this? NO. BECAUSE THAT WOULD BE SOMETHING FUN. And I may no longer have fun. (excuse my retail-worker-at-christmastime attitude, it's gonna be a long month). But I did find this:

(Gerard's on the right)

EDIT/// - woooooooohooooooooooooo, I can have fun again.
Should I share this newfound pic? (found totally by accident, no less)

0_0

2006-12-04T02:32:00.000-05:00

so...I updated to their beta crap... and I updated my layout or whatever they're calling it now...
And found that I suck at learning new types of coding at 2:30 am... But I got the basics! That's why it's all black instead of some horrible combo of different shades of sea green... I think that sentence was fucked up, but I'm not sure, So I'm gonna go to bed.

whoa, I explain my absence!

2006-11-22T23:05:00.000-05:00

I have much to say, but there's someone out there who can't understand that I'm speaking to her as a stranger now. So, I will say it here, where she won't read it, for you to know where I've been. It's posted where she can see as well, but... I feel like sharing. Thus far though, curiosity seem sto have proven too much for her. Remember, folks, this is only my side of the story. I apologize in advance for chapter 3.

chapter1, the beginning.

La, Bean and I have been friends for six years. Good friends; best friends even. Over the last year, it had become increasingly apparent that she was lying to us, followed by "teasing" with the cruelest jokes she knew. Soon, I was hearing my intimate secrets from the mouths of near strangers, then lies. The trust of the friendship was shattered, but the sisterhood survived enough that it seemed worth the attempted rebuilding. The lies continued, though. Less obvious, but more significant.

It was during an outing that the facade came down. A fight, an inane fight, ending in La walking away. It was so dramatic, and it was the end. I think we all knew. I can only speak for Bean and myself here though.

Chapter 2

She called me not long after, telling me that I needed to come and talk to her. I was extremely busy, and still angry over her behavior, so I told her I would see her as soon as possible, or we could discuss the matter over the phone. She declined, and that evening Bean sent her an email stating how she felt about the way we had been treated.

The next day, the emails arrived. I obviously read my own first:
"I know you had a hand in writing that letter. I wish you would free yourself from Bean so you can save money and get on with your life.... I wish we could still be friends, you and I. I guess you can keep my hampster cage, you'll need it as Bean replaces me with a rodent....It is your perogative to talk to me, its all up to you. I'm leaving the door of friendship open to YOU. If you need me I'll be there.
I'm waiting for your rude reply because I know I have wounded you. I trust you'll follow Bean's destructive path some more. I wish you would hold yourself higher than the trailorpark you came from....Your demoted friend, La."

I was not too surprisingly insulted by some of the statements in this email. So I called Bean. She gave me the password to her email, and I found so much more...

"If Starry had the balls to talk with me, this would have ended already. I was going to try and keep us all friends but I have no choice....You are no-longer trustworthy, the way you act is to either extreme. You started changing your senior year, I don't think you've had enough time to adjust to being an adult.... I've been too vulnerable a person with both of you. Understand me, a friend is just that...a friend. You are no-longer the Bean I made friends with tea. You use me and cheat me and expect me not to hide things from you? I will tell you the truth, that night with Melisa at my side we listened to the entire phone conversation between you and Dean. You lied to me plain faced about the things said and friends don't do that. Starry wasn't crying torwards the end, and now I wish she wasn't another part of you. Starry has changed too, she hasn't been a real person since you took over. You need to stop seeking love by getting animals then throwing them to Starry to take care of....Respect is something you have lacked for a long time.... I know your Mother would agree to that statement....
The only reason you cling to Caleb is because you don't want to be an adult anymore. You want to be a little girl with her dollies. So have fun young one, no tears hear.
Nolonger your sister, La"

Now I felt attacked, as did my friend. I called her, and I left an angry message, and I thought that was it. I wish that had been it. I am and have been glad to be rid of her.

Chapter 3, explaination (my side part 1).

No, I did not write any of that. What I had to say was completely different. The only reason I would be rude to her at that pint is that she attacked and belittled the only non-family member in my life who has ALWAYS stood by me. I will always defend her. Yes, I come from a trailor park. So what? She came from rat infested apartments, to hear her tell the stories. My demoted friend? How self serving, and, to paraphrase a friend of hers, "martyriffic."

I didn't react very strongly, really, until I read the line about having no balls. She has forced me to play simpering go-between, a freedomless peacemaker, puppet, translator, for years. She has run me back and forth, carrying her messages, listening to her spiels about the true evil of Bean but oh she loves her so much, while also listening to Bean's rages that her own best friend wouldn't just talk to her. It was painful to me, and La knew that. In the end, though, she lay the blame on my unwillingness to tear myself apart over a dead relationship. She NEVER "tried to keep us all together," she admittedly tried to distance us several times, but always came back. Bean is far more trustworthy than she is, proven by her lies. Everyone changes. If you don't like those changes, then end it respectfully, not with insults and hate. No one used or cheated La. Not us anyway. She listened, huh? Another lie exposed. A strange lie though, because as I told her, I listened too. Everything Bean said was true, and since she have accused me of lying by proxy, I will tell confirm that everything I said is true. I have to wonder, which is the lie that she told? "I listened," or "I slept."
I am a part of another person? Not real? I don't even know how to answer that. She has said so many untrue things about me as if they were fact, I have come to believe that she does not know me, but rather a fantasy she thinks is me. Perhaps this flat, imaginary me has left her wanting?
Bean has never thrown an animal to me, I have volunteered to care for the ones that her mother barred from their house. Also, Bean has not gotten another animal since I took over their care. She knows this. I think she is trying to wound us with sensationalized accusations.
She does not lack respect, and La knows full well that her mother has spent much of the time we knew her somewhat out of her mind. Perhaps, though, La would like us to talk to her mother about here? I know the things she says about La when she's not there, I've heard them.
Finally, Bean is not clinging to Caleb beyond the very proper sense that she is maintaining a healthy relationship for the sake of their child. She is also greatly enjoying her adulthood, far more than I am.

Chapter 4, Bean reaches out.

Bean wanted closure, wanted to know why 6 years of sisterhood meant so little, so she sent another email weeks later. A cordial email, with a cordial response. So again, she emailed, recieving a slightly less cordial response. As the cycle repeated, La became venemous, without known reason or a single answered question.

Chapter 5, Myspace Wars.

I saw her at my place of work. I snapped at her, admittedly. In my defense, I was upset that she was there while I was working, by my department, when she had many other options of where to go, and she was annoying the crap out of my coworker, but I shouldn't have snapped. Call it a fit of temper. Soon after, I find:

"Why can't people just let things die and start over....*sigh*...I don't understand why Bean would raise such a stink, since now she's getting cock again like her myspace says...oh my, well that is my thoughts on the excrement she writes to me and then puts up.By the way, Starry you shouldn't treat customers like you do. So bite me."

Apparently, my answer of "meeting nice guys=getting cock? strange, not in my life... huh. She just wanted her closure. I didn't think it was much to ask." Sparked all sorts of myspace drama. (I feel so special ;) )

She called Bean a slut, she swore at me, called us self-centered, called us stalkers AFTER sending me an email begging me not to hate her and insulting me some more. She continued on till she looked like worthless trash, and I have to wonder if that's what she has become. She has certainly proved herself both ignorant and a liar, behaviors I am rarely forgiving of.

And that is where it stands.
A pathetic end.

8 things...

2006-11-02T23:31:00.000-05:00

and a promise for a pic of my halloween costume to be posted shortly.

1)I self injure
2)I sometimes just "fall off the planet"...but only when I'm comfortable that the people I care about will be there when I get back.
3)I have an Uncle who killed someone while he was driving drunk, and a cousin killed in an accident (unrelated)
4)I failed my first year of college when I became too depressed to bother getting out of bed and go to class. I cry sometimes when I think about people with full educations wasting their time not doing what they love, and am watching my brother just not attend his classes because he doesn't feel like it.
5)I hate being home... I haven't slept in my own room in almost 3 weeks. (one of the reasons I disappear.)
6)I suck at trusting people, but I'm very good at faking it.
7)I'm so afraid of failing to accomplish my goals in life that sometimes I almost give up, just so I won't have to face failure.
8)I have more than 4 of my own, personal pets buried in out back yard. Two more will join them tomorrow, due to a cold spell.

On a different note... you all remember when I posted about my hamster Oliver and how she broke her foot? (ha, half you weren't even reading then)
...
...
......
She broke her leg now. Stupid hamster, and she still won't stop climbing. I think she does it for the attention ;)

....NOOOOOOO!

2006-10-20T19:45:00.000-04:00

So... we all remember my insane adoration of Gerard Way, of My Chemical Romance, right?

So pretty, right?

WHAT IS HE THINKING?!?!?!

Stupid computer

2006-10-17T22:17:00.000-04:00

keyboard is always breaking and now it's closing different windows goddammit!

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

2006-10-10T02:26:00.000-04:00

eventually, I'll finish it... or go back to the way it was. Whichever :)

sad news in hamsterville...

2006-10-07T21:11:00.000-04:00

Some of you may remember this post, about my hamsters that were abused. Sadly one of them died last night... I'm gonna miss my little "pumpkin pie."

Lucienne-

2006-10-07T16:01:00.000-04:00

why I shouldn't watch the news:

So I'm watching an interview about sexism in the scientific communities, and they're speaking with a transgendered gentleman, Ben-previously-Barbera. Very shortly after his operation, he gave a lecture at MIT. After the lecture, he heard one student say to another, "His work is so much better than his sister, Barbera's."

Then I watched a interview byJohn Stossel about how certain governments are stealing the aid their countries recieve instead of giving it to the people. One of the gentlemen who feels we should send more aid says, "There is this myth, 'the poorest of poor are our enemies,' and your just keep repeating it over and over!"
.... again, the piece was about rich governments stealing from poor people...

ok, my keyboard is breakingagain, so tha's enouh outta me...

tagged by mizfit

2006-10-06T16:00:00.000-04:00

so...I'm supposed to post 3 funny pics of myself...but I only found 2!!! so I owe you all one funny pic.... But here you have me stuffing my face, on 2 seperate occaisions. ;P

more fun online

2006-10-04T01:02:00.000-04:00

The Photo Game
1. Open up Google.
2. Click the "Images" Tab
3. Type in your first name and post your 3 favorite pictures that come up.

(it took forever because all the good pictures just weren't gonna work out. I'm picky.)

LEO

"From the early age, Leos are inclined towards drunkennes and extortion. When it comes to anything else, they show a remarkable degree of laziness. As a child, a Leo will typically demand a lot of money from parents, then from friends and even casual aquaintances.
His overly developed pride and narcissism can ruin the life of anyone who he has come into even passing contact with, while his gluttony is capable of bankrupting even the deepest set of pockets. Amazingly, even though Leos eat a lot and without stop, they never gain any weight.
They like to have the world revolve around them, which is why they strive to be the best at anything they do. If they are not successful at this, they will languish and lose weight.
A Leo's dominant character traits are usually an unshakable delusion of grandure and an elevated feeling of self-importance. "

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not looking good

2006-10-03T10:33:00.000-04:00

"The toll from the nation's third deadly school shooting in less than a week rose twice within a matter of hours Tuesday with the deaths of a 9-year-old girl at Christiana Hospital in Delaware and a 7-year-old girl at Penn State Children's Hospital in Hershey."

"Reclusive North Korea said on Tuesday it would conduct its first-ever nuclear test, blaming a U.S. "threat of nuclear war and sanctions" for forcing its hand....Japanese Foreign Minister Taro Aso was quoted by Kyodo News Agency as calling the planned test "totally unforgivable" and warning that the international community would respond harshly."

""There wasn't much there other than a friendly inquiry," Hastert said of the 2005 message from Foley, R-Fla., described as "sick" by the boy. The message asked for a photograph and mentioned a different teen who was in "great shape."
Hastert said neither he nor other GOP leaders were aware until last Friday of the reportedly far more lurid computer exchanges two years earlier between the Florida Republican and another page. He urged anyone with sexually graphic e-mails that preceded Foley's resignation to contact authorities."

fun online

2006-10-02T00:50:00.000-04:00

SARAH BRIGHTMAN

Sleep Tight

We saw Fantasia in a far off land,

Cry for the living in the desert sand.

They waited underneath a splintered moon.

To hear the beating of an ancient tune.

[Chorus:]

Sleep tight.

The reaper's waiting in the wings.

Sleep tight.

To reap a man of many things.

Sleep tight.

Look through the eyes of destiny.

Sleep tight.

We find the kingdom but He holds the key.

I met a seer who believes and dreams,

Our blood is running through eternal streams.

Dust you'll return and dust you shall remain.

'Coz that's the only heart that beats and beats again.

[Chorus -- 3x]

Sleep tight.

I wish I had this outfit/haircolor:

But I'm a little closer to:

but my scarf is black and white :)

Dear Santa,

2006-10-01T22:48:00.000-04:00

I am writing not to ask for gifts, but in regards to your appearance at Walmart this morning. Frankly, I think it is a litte tasteless to bring out the red suit before Thanksgiving, and absolutely disturbing before Halloween (perhaps this was the point?). You could have at least washed it any time in the past 50 years. Your manor with the customers was disturbing, and far too personal. We know that you see us when we're sleeping, and know when we're awake, but we don't know you. It was deeply unnerving. Perhaps it had something to do with the alcoholic stench following you as you wavered through the store? Honestly, Father Christmas, you were scaring children and adults alike. That's why management asked you to leave.

Also, when did you start handing out Halloween candy?! I thought we'd learned our lesson about holiday theft...

Your later appearance, although deeply reminiscent of our stationary department employee, was much more pleasant. I must admit it was unusual to see Santa pushing a cart of Halloween bags, though; did you lose your sack?

Yours truly, I want a digital camera and an mp3 player,
Starry Lady

PS - you should really come sometime when little old Elvis is there, he's a character.

(for those wondering, this is not a joke. This was my work day. People were asking us if the candy was safe. And the Elvis guy is a customer with an uncanny resemblance to an elderly Elvis.)

2006-09-29T17:43:00.000-04:00

I have more than 26 hours of music on just one playlist...
Dear Lord, I must be stopped!! ;)

In other news...
crappy day in maine...

violin

2006-09-09T21:36:00.000-04:00

So...
I played my violin tonight for the first time in a year.

It was great.

My back and ass hurt from the chair and posture, my shoulder is sore from holding the bow, the fingers on my left hand feel like they're going to split open from pressing the strings, and my eyes hurt from trying to read the music...
I feel great.

;)

New hair color, yet again...

2006-09-07T00:34:00.000-04:00

It didn't come out completely even, but we'll get it right next time. Then you can see pics. Until then (and it could be a while, the developer in the dye burned my scalp), you'll have to make due with this:

For those wondering, dying my hair is just so fun, it helps relieve stress. Except for the burnt scalp part.

I like it...

2006-09-02T02:12:00.000-04:00

you can get yours here...

back by popular demand...

2006-08-18T23:16:00.000-04:00

So, pictures of my 2-day birthday to follow, as soon as they are developed. I seem to have misplaced my digital camera from it's snug spot in my purse, and I might know who helped it on it's way. But that's a different story.

So....
Where the hell have I been for the last week? (Or so)
It all starts last friday...

I was out with a friend, and he let slip that one of my best friends had told him something very personal and somewhat embarrassing about me. Obviously I was kinda upset by this, especially when you add on that she had, in the week+1/2 previous, lied to me, avoided me, and insulted me.
Now, 6 years of friendship, I'm willing to give her a chance to explain herself.
So I called her.
And called her.
Recieved an email from her saying she wasn't ignoring me, she just didn't want to talk to me until we could be "adult." (speaking to me like that is a BIG mistake)
And called her.
For 3 days.
Then I gave up for two days.

I missed one day of work because I was too upset to get out of bed (I know it sounds a little pathetic, but it makes sense to those who know me well). I missed another because the stress was apparently a little much on my body, and I got another u.t.i. I don't think this one made it to my kidney, but I still have to take antibiotics twice a day. That, of course, made me miss another day of work. My store manager was such an asshole when I called, that he made me cry. The next day was my birthday.

So, when I made that post, I was being ignored by one friend, sick, in some minor pain, I had been carded buying lighter fluid("I'm 20 today"-"You look much younger than 18" wtf?), and my other friend was out shopping with her baby's grandmothers. Not like someone died (that was my 15th+16th birthdays), but pretty crappy.
So I went to the beach. I wanted to set something on fire (hence the lighter fluid), but there were too many people around. No privacy.

She showed up on my birthday with a present and an apology. Part of the apology was a cd starting out "why should we break up/let's kiss and make up."
So I let her talk.

As it turns out, it was several misunderstandings, her saying a couple stupid things, and her complete lack of interpersonal skills combining. I'm still mad, but I'd rather just... not fight. I don't know that I quite trust her the same either, but we'll see how it goes.

This is what I get for befriending people as crazy as me. One with diagnosed borderline personality, and one afraid to go to a psychiatrist/psychologist because she had a bad experience with one 10+ years ago.

Yesterday was better though... We all went to the beach, and Katrina and I watched a movie. You'll see pics soon, as I said.

happy birthday to me....

2006-08-16T16:48:00.000-04:00

I'll tell you all aboutmy day once it's over...
Thus far, though...
It sucks. A Starry birthday tradition.

wandering mind, or thoughts of the day

2006-08-03T00:53:00.000-04:00

"'Heat, humidity combine to torture East ' - WASHINGTON - Record-breaking heat and oppressive humidity made people across the eastern half of the country miserable Wednesday and sent tourists in the nation's capital scrambling for relief in the cool marble halls of Capitol Hill. "

And Thursday was even warmer. I actually had to retreat to the airconditioning... I hate ac. I like hot temps. But today was 97, with the humidity making it feel like well over 100. Back into the 80-85 range tomorrow.

dc talk, "What Have We Bacome?" lyrics...

A preacher shuns his brother
Cause his bride's a different color
And this is not acceptable
His papa taught him so
It was love that he'd been preaching
But this was overreaching
The boundaries stretchin' further
Than his heart would choose to go

Like an angel with no wings
Like a kingdom with no king

What have we become?
A self indulgent people
What have we become?
Tell me where are the righteous ones?
What have we become?
In a world degenerating
What have we become?

Speak your mind, look out for yourself
The answer to it all is a life of wealth
Grab all you can cause you live just once
You got the right to do whatever you want
Don't worry about others or where you came from
It ain't what you were, it's what you have become

Mom and Dad are fightin'
As Rosie lies there crying
For once again she's overheard
Regrets of their mistake
With Christmas bells a-ringing
Little Rosie'd leave them grieving
The gift she'd give her family
Would be the pills she'd take

An inconvenient child
She wasn't worth their while

What have we become?
A self indulgent people
What have we become?
Tell me where are the righteous ones?
What have we become?
In a world degenerating
What have we become?

Speak your mind, look out for yourself
The answer to it all is a life of wealth
Grab all you can cause you live just once
You got the right to do whatever you want
Don't worry about others or where you came from
It ain't what you were, it's what you have become

What about love?
What about God?
What about holiness?
What about mercy, compassion and selflessness?

What have we become?
A self indulgent people
What have we become?
Tell me where are the righteous ones?
What have we become?
In a world degenerating
What have we become?
What have we become?
Have we come undone?
What have we become?
Have we come undone?
What have we become?

Speak your mind, look out for yourself
The answer to it all is a life of wealth
Grab all you can cause you live just once
You got the right to do whatever you want
Don't worry about others or where you came from
It ain't what you were, it's what you have become

Selfish... With selfish...
Selfish people
When you gonna learn?
Everyone of us
Gathered 'round in trust
What have we become?

For those who notice, yes, I did cut a 2 or 3 line section. I have my reasons. This is about what I've been thinking about, not the song.
...that song used to make me cry.

Gave my resume to a vet hospital today... I'm probably going to get a job in the kennel. Full time, 4 days a week, insurace, money to buy my work clothes, under 40 minutes away, AND I can move up from where I'm hired, which will be a huge help in my goal of BEING a vet. I'll let ya'll know how it goes.

My niece has mild jaundice, but she should be ok tomorrow.

...I think that's all for now...

"Sunny Came Home", Shawn Colvin

Sunny came home to her favorite room
Sunny sat down in the kitchen
She opened a book and a box of tools
Sunny came home with a mission

She says days go by I'm hypnotized
I'm walking on a wire
I close my eyes and fly out of my mind
Into the fire

Sunny came home with a list of names
She didn't believe in transcendence
It's time for a few small repairs she said
Sunny came home with a vengeance

She says days go by I don't know why
I'm walking on a wire
I close my eyes and fly out of my mind
Into the fire

Get the kids and bring a sweater
Dry is good and wind is better
Count the years, you always knew it
Strike a match, go on and do it

Days go by I'm hypnotized
I'm walking on a wire
I close my eyes and fly out of my mind
Into the fire

Light the sky and hold on tight
The world is burning down
She's out there on her own and she's alright
Sunny came home
Sunny came home...

I'm an auntie!

2006-07-28T18:12:00.000-04:00

Jean Elizabeth, absolutely beautiful, 7lbs 8 oz, 21 or so inches, 12:38 July 28, 2006.

35 minutes of watching pushing, 2 hours of holding her hand as they figured out where to stitch the pieces back to. But she's the best best-friend in the world, and she needed me. I was glad to be there.

funny @ 2 am

2006-07-25T02:30:00.000-04:00

something I just thought of... Sol, l>t, did you notice we all seem to have started within a month of eachother? I seem to recall l>t having another blog, but I can't remember when that one was started...

Excuse any grammar mistakes, it is, as I mentioned, 2 am.

...Sol, these pics are for you. My parents took them while they were up in northern Maine... "Wild Blueberry Land"

Those are giant metal blueberries, all next to the parkinglot.

coming soon...

2006-07-18T02:21:00.000-04:00

A new icon! BUT... it won't let me use the one I have, the file's too big. Because at 1 am, I forget to check those things. Oops. BUT (yet again...) you get to see it anyway. :D

I made it. Watch it please.

Band recommendation

2006-07-17T22:51:00.000-04:00

Well, I suspect you've all noticed I'm a little obsessed with my bands (I'm so possessive ;) ). I've got a new one for you, I just heard them for the first time at the concert I went to... Hinder. They're pretty new I guess, but very good. Strongly recommended.

"When you said those three words I kinda freaked out
When you said them first my jaw hit the ground
I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you
And this can't be saved if you can't be found
You hung up and left me for dead on the ground
You didn't even say goodbye
And this can't be saved
And this can't be saved
If you can't be found
If you can't be found
I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you
I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you"
-"Shoulda," Hinder

Iwas going to include music too, but the stupid, fucking, Goddamn upload program won't work. Figures. I should know better than to use that site.

picture time!

2006-07-15T18:01:00.000-04:00

Oliver with a yogurt-covered-banana hamster treat... her favorite. I believe she was trying to stuff it into her cheek pouch for safe keeping till she was back in her tank.

Speaking of her tank... Oliver's new and improved tank! Her old one was good, but I needed it for a gerbil who had to be in a tank, so I gave her a cage. She strongly disliked it, and that made me sad. After all, I love my Oliver. Then my friend found this in her barn, and gave it to me. Now Oliver is always happy.

Oh no! This is today. It's too hot for hamsters. She's been rubbing her back on the spout of her water bottle to cool off, so she's all wet and her fur is sticking up funny. I carried her around outside for a few minutes, and then gave her an ice cube. I think that'll make her feel better.

My best friend's kitty Pepper (aka, Princess Peppercorn), eating salad off an abandoned plate. She's an odd one.

gahhh

2006-07-09T23:58:00.000-04:00

so... I worked 8 hours (9-lunch) saturday, can't remember Sunday but I know I did something, worked 8.5 hours monday, went minigolfing with small children then to fireworks (which involved about 4 miles up and down a very big hill) on tuesday, worked 8.5 hours wednesday/thursday/friday nights, 8 hours saturday/sunday(today) midday, and I'll be in 8.5 tomorrow, and tuesday I'm going to a concert. I have had to cover 3-7 different departments on some nights (ranking somewhere between physically improbable and impossible). I have been sworn at and screamed at by several different customers. I am in pain. I am exhausted.

I'm going to be away for a few more days, I think.

close enough for now...

2006-07-04T00:17:00.000-04:00

pics and such

2006-06-21T01:38:00.000-04:00

This is me, a year and a half ago... my mom won a free session at a professional photography place, and had me use it. There are 2 things about this pic that I just can't get over... my horrendously chipped nailpolish (I even tried to photoshop it), and I was so skinny...

I suppose that sticks out so much to me because I gained a noticable 10 pounds or so about 6 months later... I've finally started to lose tht extra weight...(whilst current pics are getting me lewd propositions on myspace)

This pic, though, got me a stable 7.7 on hotornot.com ....

ah, just what the world needed.... another pic of Starry stuffing her face. Yup, I'm a piggy. This was Saturday, at my brother's+cousin's graduation party. See the old lady in purple? The one about 5 shades darker than me? That's my Grammy, whose house was flooded. hmmmm on more pic to amuse you...

Three cousins! On the right is our cousin, then my brother, and obviously me. Alright, I lied, I'm just so proud of my brother, I'm going to make you look at more.

Mom, brother, Grammy, Auntie

Dad, brother, Grammy.

47 out of 56

2006-06-21T00:57:00.000-04:00

Child of the 90's. Bold the ones you've done.

1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCH!"
2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air".
4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish.
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-Sitters Club and tried to start a club of your own....
6. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
7. You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey on Blossom.
8. Two words: M.C. Hammer
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock."
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars.
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales."
12. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen.
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
16. You played the game "MASH".
17. You wore a Jordache Jean jacket and you were proud of it.
18. L.A. Gear.
19. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten.
20. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing" and all the Ramona books.
21. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF."
22. You wanted to be a Goonie.
23. You ever wore flourescent clothing.
24. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off.
25. You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
26. You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
27. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
28. You remember Hypercolor T-shirts
29. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence.
30. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.
31. You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up.
32. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets.
33. You owned a pair of jelly sandals.
34. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"
35. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up!"
36. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
37. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip 'n' Slide.
38. You have ever played with a Skip-It.
39. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonald's.
41. You remember Popples.
42. "Don't worry, be happy."
43. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights.
44. You wore socks scrunched down.
45. "Miss MARY MACK MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK"
46. You remember boom boxes vs. CD players.
47. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies.
48. You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!"
49. You remember watching Rainbow Brite and My Little Ponies.
50. You thought Doogie Howser was hot.
51. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
52. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool.
53. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell," the ORIGINAL class. LIKE NO OTHER!
54. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - "YOU GIVE LOVE A BAD NAME".
55. You played and or collected "Pogs"
56. You used to pretend that you could transform into a Power Ranger.