not looking good

"The toll from the nation's third deadly school shooting in less than a week rose twice within a matter of hours Tuesday with the deaths of a 9-year-old girl at Christiana Hospital in Delaware and a 7-year-old girl at Penn State Children's Hospital in Hershey."

"Reclusive North Korea said on Tuesday it would conduct its first-ever nuclear test, blaming a U.S. "threat of nuclear war and sanctions" for forcing its hand....Japanese Foreign Minister Taro Aso was quoted by Kyodo News Agency as calling the planned test "totally unforgivable" and warning that the international community would respond harshly."

""There wasn't much there other than a friendly inquiry," Hastert said of the 2005 message from Foley, R-Fla., described as "sick" by the boy. The message asked for a photograph and mentioned a different teen who was in "great shape."
Hastert said neither he nor other GOP leaders were aware until last Friday of the reportedly far more lurid computer exchanges two years earlier between the Florida Republican and another page. He urged anyone with sexually graphic e-mails that preceded Foley's resignation to contact authorities."

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SARAH BRIGHTMAN

Sleep Tight

We saw Fantasia in a far off land,

Cry for the living in the desert sand.

They waited underneath a splintered moon.

To hear the beating of an ancient tune.

[Chorus:]

Sleep tight.

The reaper's waiting in the wings.

Sleep tight.

To reap a man of many things.

Sleep tight.

Look through the eyes of destiny.

Sleep tight.

We find the kingdom but He holds the key.

I met a seer who believes and dreams,

Our blood is running through eternal streams.

Dust you'll return and dust you shall remain.

'Coz that's the only heart that beats and beats again.

[Chorus -- 3x]

Sleep tight.

I wish I had this outfit/haircolor:

But I'm a little closer to:

but my scarf is black and white :)

Dear Santa,

I am writing not to ask for gifts, but in regards to your appearance at Walmart this morning. Frankly, I think it is a litte tasteless to bring out the red suit before Thanksgiving, and absolutely disturbing before Halloween (perhaps this was the point?). You could have at least washed it any time in the past 50 years. Your manor with the customers was disturbing, and far too personal. We know that you see us when we're sleeping, and know when we're awake, but we don't know you. It was deeply unnerving. Perhaps it had something to do with the alcoholic stench following you as you wavered through the store? Honestly, Father Christmas, you were scaring children and adults alike. That's why management asked you to leave.

Also, when did you start handing out Halloween candy?! I thought we'd learned our lesson about holiday theft...

Your later appearance, although deeply reminiscent of our stationary department employee, was much more pleasant. I must admit it was unusual to see Santa pushing a cart of Halloween bags, though; did you lose your sack?

Yours truly, I want a digital camera and an mp3 player,
Starry Lady

PS - you should really come sometime when little old Elvis is there, he's a character.




(for those wondering, this is not a joke. This was my work day. People were asking us if the candy was safe. And the Elvis guy is a customer with an uncanny resemblance to an elderly Elvis.)

I have more than 26 hours of music on just one playlist...
Dear Lord, I must be stopped!! ;)

In other news...
crappy day in maine...

violin

So...
I played my violin tonight for the first time in a year.

It was great.

My back and ass hurt from the chair and posture, my shoulder is sore from holding the bow, the fingers on my left hand feel like they're going to split open from pressing the strings, and my eyes hurt from trying to read the music...
I feel great.

;)

New hair color, yet again...

It didn't come out completely even, but we'll get it right next time. Then you can see pics. Until then (and it could be a while, the developer in the dye burned my scalp), you'll have to make due with this:



For those wondering, dying my hair is just so fun, it helps relieve stress. Except for the burnt scalp part.

I like it...

you can get yours here...

back by popular demand...

So, pictures of my 2-day birthday to follow, as soon as they are developed. I seem to have misplaced my digital camera from it's snug spot in my purse, and I might know who helped it on it's way. But that's a different story.

So....
Where the hell have I been for the last week? (Or so)
It all starts last friday...

I was out with a friend, and he let slip that one of my best friends had told him something very personal and somewhat embarrassing about me. Obviously I was kinda upset by this, especially when you add on that she had, in the week+1/2 previous, lied to me, avoided me, and insulted me.
Now, 6 years of friendship, I'm willing to give her a chance to explain herself.
So I called her.
And called her.
Recieved an email from her saying she wasn't ignoring me, she just didn't want to talk to me until we could be "adult." (speaking to me like that is a BIG mistake)
And called her.
For 3 days.
Then I gave up for two days.

I missed one day of work because I was too upset to get out of bed (I know it sounds a little pathetic, but it makes sense to those who know me well). I missed another because the stress was apparently a little much on my body, and I got another u.t.i. I don't think this one made it to my kidney, but I still have to take antibiotics twice a day. That, of course, made me miss another day of work. My store manager was such an asshole when I called, that he made me cry. The next day was my birthday.

So, when I made that post, I was being ignored by one friend, sick, in some minor pain, I had been carded buying lighter fluid("I'm 20 today"-"You look much younger than 18" wtf?), and my other friend was out shopping with her baby's grandmothers. Not like someone died (that was my 15th+16th birthdays), but pretty crappy.
So I went to the beach. I wanted to set something on fire (hence the lighter fluid), but there were too many people around. No privacy.

She showed up on my birthday with a present and an apology. Part of the apology was a cd starting out "why should we break up/let's kiss and make up."
So I let her talk.

As it turns out, it was several misunderstandings, her saying a couple stupid things, and her complete lack of interpersonal skills combining. I'm still mad, but I'd rather just... not fight. I don't know that I quite trust her the same either, but we'll see how it goes.

This is what I get for befriending people as crazy as me. One with diagnosed borderline personality, and one afraid to go to a psychiatrist/psychologist because she had a bad experience with one 10+ years ago.


Yesterday was better though... We all went to the beach, and Katrina and I watched a movie. You'll see pics soon, as I said.

happy birthday to me....

I'll tell you all aboutmy day once it's over...
Thus far, though...
It sucks. A Starry birthday tradition.

wandering mind, or thoughts of the day

"'Heat, humidity combine to torture East ' - WASHINGTON - Record-breaking heat and oppressive humidity made people across the eastern half of the country miserable Wednesday and sent tourists in the nation's capital scrambling for relief in the cool marble halls of Capitol Hill. "

And Thursday was even warmer. I actually had to retreat to the airconditioning... I hate ac. I like hot temps. But today was 97, with the humidity making it feel like well over 100. Back into the 80-85 range tomorrow.

dc talk, "What Have We Bacome?" lyrics...

A preacher shuns his brother
Cause his bride's a different color
And this is not acceptable
His papa taught him so
It was love that he'd been preaching
But this was overreaching
The boundaries stretchin' further
Than his heart would choose to go

Like an angel with no wings
Like a kingdom with no king

What have we become?
A self indulgent people
What have we become?
Tell me where are the righteous ones?
What have we become?
In a world degenerating
What have we become?

Speak your mind, look out for yourself
The answer to it all is a life of wealth
Grab all you can cause you live just once
You got the right to do whatever you want
Don't worry about others or where you came from
It ain't what you were, it's what you have become

Mom and Dad are fightin'
As Rosie lies there crying
For once again she's overheard
Regrets of their mistake
With Christmas bells a-ringing
Little Rosie'd leave them grieving
The gift she'd give her family
Would be the pills she'd take

An inconvenient child
She wasn't worth their while

What have we become?
A self indulgent people
What have we become?
Tell me where are the righteous ones?
What have we become?
In a world degenerating
What have we become?

Speak your mind, look out for yourself
The answer to it all is a life of wealth
Grab all you can cause you live just once
You got the right to do whatever you want
Don't worry about others or where you came from
It ain't what you were, it's what you have become

What about love?
What about God?
What about holiness?
What about mercy, compassion and selflessness?

What have we become?
A self indulgent people
What have we become?
Tell me where are the righteous ones?
What have we become?
In a world degenerating
What have we become?
What have we become?
Have we come undone?
What have we become?
Have we come undone?
What have we become?

Speak your mind, look out for yourself
The answer to it all is a life of wealth
Grab all you can cause you live just once
You got the right to do whatever you want
Don't worry about others or where you came from
It ain't what you were, it's what you have become

Selfish... With selfish...
Selfish people
When you gonna learn?
Everyone of us
Gathered 'round in trust
What have we become?

For those who notice, yes, I did cut a 2 or 3 line section. I have my reasons. This is about what I've been thinking about, not the song.
...that song used to make me cry.

Gave my resume to a vet hospital today... I'm probably going to get a job in the kennel. Full time, 4 days a week, insurace, money to buy my work clothes, under 40 minutes away, AND I can move up from where I'm hired, which will be a huge help in my goal of BEING a vet. I'll let ya'll know how it goes.

My niece has mild jaundice, but she should be ok tomorrow.

...I think that's all for now...


"Sunny Came Home", Shawn Colvin

Sunny came home to her favorite room
Sunny sat down in the kitchen
She opened a book and a box of tools
Sunny came home with a mission

She says days go by I'm hypnotized
I'm walking on a wire
I close my eyes and fly out of my mind
Into the fire

Sunny came home with a list of names
She didn't believe in transcendence
It's time for a few small repairs she said
Sunny came home with a vengeance

She says days go by I don't know why
I'm walking on a wire
I close my eyes and fly out of my mind
Into the fire

Get the kids and bring a sweater
Dry is good and wind is better
Count the years, you always knew it
Strike a match, go on and do it

Days go by I'm hypnotized
I'm walking on a wire
I close my eyes and fly out of my mind
Into the fire

Light the sky and hold on tight
The world is burning down
She's out there on her own and she's alright
Sunny came home
Sunny came home...