8.18.2006

back by popular demand...

So, pictures of my 2-day birthday to follow, as soon as they are developed. I seem to have misplaced my digital camera from it's snug spot in my purse, and I might know who helped it on it's way. But that's a different story.

So....
Where the hell have I been for the last week? (Or so)
It all starts last friday...

I was out with a friend, and he let slip that one of my best friends had told him something very personal and somewhat embarrassing about me. Obviously I was kinda upset by this, especially when you add on that she had, in the week+1/2 previous, lied to me, avoided me, and insulted me.
Now, 6 years of friendship, I'm willing to give her a chance to explain herself.
So I called her.
And called her.
Recieved an email from her saying she wasn't ignoring me, she just didn't want to talk to me until we could be "adult." (speaking to me like that is a BIG mistake)
And called her.
For 3 days.
Then I gave up for two days.

I missed one day of work because I was too upset to get out of bed (I know it sounds a little pathetic, but it makes sense to those who know me well). I missed another because the stress was apparently a little much on my body, and I got another u.t.i. I don't think this one made it to my kidney, but I still have to take antibiotics twice a day. That, of course, made me miss another day of work. My store manager was such an asshole when I called, that he made me cry. The next day was my birthday.

So, when I made that post, I was being ignored by one friend, sick, in some minor pain, I had been carded buying lighter fluid("I'm 20 today"-"You look much younger than 18" wtf?), and my other friend was out shopping with her baby's grandmothers. Not like someone died (that was my 15th+16th birthdays), but pretty crappy.
So I went to the beach. I wanted to set something on fire (hence the lighter fluid), but there were too many people around. No privacy.

She showed up on my birthday with a present and an apology. Part of the apology was a cd starting out "why should we break up/let's kiss and make up."
So I let her talk.

As it turns out, it was several misunderstandings, her saying a couple stupid things, and her complete lack of interpersonal skills combining. I'm still mad, but I'd rather just... not fight. I don't know that I quite trust her the same either, but we'll see how it goes.

This is what I get for befriending people as crazy as me. One with diagnosed borderline personality, and one afraid to go to a psychiatrist/psychologist because she had a bad experience with one 10+ years ago.


Yesterday was better though... We all went to the beach, and Katrina and I watched a movie. You'll see pics soon, as I said.

8.16.2006

happy birthday to me....

I'll tell you all aboutmy day once it's over...
Thus far, though...
It sucks. A Starry birthday tradition.

8.03.2006

wandering mind, or thoughts of the day

"'Heat, humidity combine to torture East ' - WASHINGTON - Record-breaking heat and oppressive humidity made people across the eastern half of the country miserable Wednesday and sent tourists in the nation's capital scrambling for relief in the cool marble halls of Capitol Hill. "

And Thursday was even warmer. I actually had to retreat to the airconditioning... I hate ac. I like hot temps. But today was 97, with the humidity making it feel like well over 100. Back into the 80-85 range tomorrow.

dc talk, "What Have We Bacome?" lyrics...

A preacher shuns his brother
Cause his bride's a different color
And this is not acceptable
His papa taught him so
It was love that he'd been preaching
But this was overreaching
The boundaries stretchin' further
Than his heart would choose to go

Like an angel with no wings
Like a kingdom with no king

What have we become?
A self indulgent people
What have we become?
Tell me where are the righteous ones?
What have we become?
In a world degenerating
What have we become?

Speak your mind, look out for yourself
The answer to it all is a life of wealth
Grab all you can cause you live just once
You got the right to do whatever you want
Don't worry about others or where you came from
It ain't what you were, it's what you have become

Mom and Dad are fightin'
As Rosie lies there crying
For once again she's overheard
Regrets of their mistake
With Christmas bells a-ringing
Little Rosie'd leave them grieving
The gift she'd give her family
Would be the pills she'd take

An inconvenient child
She wasn't worth their while

What have we become?
A self indulgent people
What have we become?
Tell me where are the righteous ones?
What have we become?
In a world degenerating
What have we become?

Speak your mind, look out for yourself
The answer to it all is a life of wealth
Grab all you can cause you live just once
You got the right to do whatever you want
Don't worry about others or where you came from
It ain't what you were, it's what you have become

What about love?
What about God?
What about holiness?
What about mercy, compassion and selflessness?

What have we become?
A self indulgent people
What have we become?
Tell me where are the righteous ones?
What have we become?
In a world degenerating
What have we become?
What have we become?
Have we come undone?
What have we become?
Have we come undone?
What have we become?

Speak your mind, look out for yourself
The answer to it all is a life of wealth
Grab all you can cause you live just once
You got the right to do whatever you want
Don't worry about others or where you came from
It ain't what you were, it's what you have become

Selfish... With selfish...
Selfish people
When you gonna learn?
Everyone of us
Gathered 'round in trust
What have we become?

For those who notice, yes, I did cut a 2 or 3 line section. I have my reasons. This is about what I've been thinking about, not the song.
...that song used to make me cry.

Gave my resume to a vet hospital today... I'm probably going to get a job in the kennel. Full time, 4 days a week, insurace, money to buy my work clothes, under 40 minutes away, AND I can move up from where I'm hired, which will be a huge help in my goal of BEING a vet. I'll let ya'll know how it goes.

My niece has mild jaundice, but she should be ok tomorrow.

...I think that's all for now...


"Sunny Came Home", Shawn Colvin

Sunny came home to her favorite room
Sunny sat down in the kitchen
She opened a book and a box of tools
Sunny came home with a mission

She says days go by I'm hypnotized
I'm walking on a wire
I close my eyes and fly out of my mind
Into the fire

Sunny came home with a list of names
She didn't believe in transcendence
It's time for a few small repairs she said
Sunny came home with a vengeance

She says days go by I don't know why
I'm walking on a wire
I close my eyes and fly out of my mind
Into the fire

Get the kids and bring a sweater
Dry is good and wind is better
Count the years, you always knew it
Strike a match, go on and do it

Days go by I'm hypnotized
I'm walking on a wire
I close my eyes and fly out of my mind
Into the fire

Light the sky and hold on tight
The world is burning down
She's out there on her own and she's alright
Sunny came home
Sunny came home...