befuddled

so... I have a myspace. I have for years. That's just background info for the thing that's bugging me:

My ex (from OVER 2 YEARS AGO) keeps visiting it. nearly EVERY DAY.
He never messages me or anything though. I don't think he knows that I know.
It's kinda freaking me out.
Dunno what to do.

I MISS THE INTERNET

I've been away far too long! Gerard Way (you all remember, the rockstar I'm stalking?) got engaged... and then unengaged... and then kissed some 19 yr old girl from some band... and I MISSED IT ALL. Craziness.

(Well, now that I've hopefully amused the crap out of all of you ;) )

Happy b-day to me.... 8/16, I turned 21. With very little partying dammit. Designated driver at my own damn party that no one but my two best friends came to. (Some ppl had very good excuses though...0_O threats of bodily harm from crazies!)

fun with excessive time off

On a sadder note, my best friend's rat (1.5 years old), that I care for, has a large mammary tumor. She probably won't be ok.

And my hamster Oliver seems to be in a rather fragile condition, due to her age(5 years) and possible tumors (harder to tell on her).

And one of my elderly desert mice has died, and the other one is very desperate to play with anyone, something she wasn't interested in when she had a companion.

They are all very old, so none of this is unexpected, and they've had good lives, so it's not heartbreaking, but it's pretty much all that's going on right now.

Happy 4th of July.

Not te most recent videos (from May), she walks almost on her own now, but they're what's on my computer, and I wanted to try this new video upload thing. She could walk completely if she wanted to, but she's a little nervous about it still. She likes to hold on with one hand. Too cute ;)

Good Lord I Love Pirates.

Hoist the Colours High.

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the Colors high.
Heave ho,
thieves and beggars,
never shall we die.

The king and his men
stole the queen from her bed
and bound her in her Bones.
The seas be ours
and by the powers
where we will we'll roam.

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the Colors high.
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
never say we die.

Some men have died
and some are alive
and others sail on the sea–
with the keys to the cage...
and the Devil to pay
we lay to Fiddler's Green!

The bell has been raised
from it's watery grave...
Do you hear it's sepulchral tone?
We are a call to all,
pay head the squall
and turn your sail toward home!

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the Colors high...
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
never say we die.

Food poisoning?! For a week?!

That concert I was all excited about? Cancelled. They got food poisoning. A WEEK AGO! They must be so sick... awwww.

They need to reschedule... or I'll hunt them down or something. ;)

But the tour doesn't end until July... so maybe they can come back then? :(

Invader Zim - "And keep it down, do you wanna wake up the whole planet?"
Gr - "I do!"

And on an actually sad note -

Pepper got very sick, we think she hit her head too hard running from a dog Bean's brother brought into the house. We tried and tried, but there was nothing that we could do. She was put to sleep April 19. She'll always be loved and remembered.

So right now, my happy thoughts are Spiderman 3 (totally awesome), 28 weeks later (28 days later was totally awesome), Shrek the Third (like I even need to tell you about Shrek), Bug (looks cheesy but fun), Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End ("Why should I sail with any of you? 4 of you tries to kill me. One succeeded!"), and both the Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban movie and the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows book.

girliness

so, being largely french and irish, I'm the kind of girl who needs to tweeze her eyebrows. If I want to have two of them, anyway.

I recently decided to go even beyond that, and try waxing my upper lip. Everyone has certain levels of hair, but when you're pale and that hair is dark, it doesn't work out so well.

So I bought myself a little waxing kit that even had a pain killer cream in it to apply before waxing.

Currently, my upper lip is numb, swollen to a ludicrous level, and bleeding.

But it worked (mostly).

You know what that translates to?
I'll do it again as soon as I need to.

Damn girliness.

oh just peachy

So I'm trying to update my flickr account, watching comedy, when the least funny commercial EVER comes on. An aspca commercial about animals being abused and needing rescue, with Sarah Mclaghlin's (Or however you sell it) "Angel" for the music.
Now I'm crying. Great. I know I post about this over and over, but WHY THE FUCK would you hurt an animal? Why? And then there's neglect... if you don't want to take care of the animal, than you don't want the animal and should give it to someone who does. No animal should be made to suffer just so someone can say "I've got a dog/cat/rabbit/etc."

Now, I'm going back to my flickr updating. I'm going to look at pics of my rescued rodents and my Squeaky (dumped out of a car and left in the woods till we found him) and Pepper (We don't know how she came to be in the condition she was in, but it was bad when we found her.)

lol, yeah, this would mean me

YIPEE

LOS ANGELES (AFP) - Producers of the next "Indiana Jones" movie are waiting to hear if former 007 star Sean Connery will return as the main hero's father, the trade magazine Variety reported Friday.

Directors George Lucas and Steven Spielberg, set to begin work on the fourth installment of the film franchise in June along with star Harrison Ford, are trying to coax Connery, 76, out of retirement for the film, Variety said.

Connery, who has been in no films since 2003, said he'd consider returning if he liked the script, the magazine reported.

Ford, 64, returns as the daring archaeologist. The movie co-stars Shia LaBeouf, 20, and Cate Blanchett, 37, likely as Indy's son and love interest respectively.

Producers have kept the plot and even title of "Indiana Jones 4" a tight secret, but Paramount Pictures plans to release the film in May 2008, Variety said.

Happy happy person

Harry Potter book on pre-order, MCR tickets purchased, new Harry Potter movie coming out soon, the trailer for Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End comes out March 19, they just re-released Peter Pan, I've got a new 'final cut' of Alexander, I've got the new Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and I finally purchased a Neil Gaiman book.

And for those who don't know, that list involves a whole lotta gorgeous ppl I may or may not ever meet...

Happy, Happy person.

disaster! --- Oh Thank God!

So, I bought a cheapy mp3 player. Really cheap. Walgreens brand cheap.
Yesterday, I loaded it into my files.
It's extremely flawed uninstaller proceeded to delete all my files.
I cried so hard I puked. 4+ years worth of files (family pictures and things I made being the most upsetting to lose. Music I can replace, I still have the list of songs.), and only some were backed up (I know, I did a dumb thing.)

Today, I made it it's own file, away from important things, and tried again.
And ran some programs I had stored in my back up file...
One had made a back up of all my image files.
Now I'm so happy and relieved I almost cried.

I lost a couple things, and I'll miss the few pics I lost... but mainly, all I have to replace is my music.

I'm off to dig up 30+ hours of music now, if you'll excuse me... ;)

(the pain in the ass... an mp3 player that deletes all my music.)



OH! I promised to tell you about my new icon.
It's pretty straight forward... I got arrested. :D
I never got a letter notifying me about some crappy court date for something rather lame, so I never showed up to the court date. As I'm sure most of you are aware... that's illegal.
So a warrent goes out, etc, nothing happens.
Until I get pulled over for my car inspection being out and they run my license.
My parents aren't amused.
I only made it as far as the room where they take your prints and info, not even to a holding cell before Dad came and bailed me out.
I've got pics of the marks from the handcuffs though (taken 2 hours later P )
I just feel like I didn't really need to be handcuffed... Or made to stand around in my jeans, tshirt, and socks in a cold area. Blah.

As an added bonus... my car insurance had expired the week before.

AND less than a month later... I get pulled over for running a stop sign. Which I didn't do, and I'm pretty sure the fucking state trooper handled the stop in an improper, possible illegal way... so I get to fight that one. Woo...more court dates... blah



(for anyone wondering why arrested=smiley... I've have this strange fascination with doing things I'm not supposed to. Getting kicked out, harrassing customers at an intellectual level they can't keep up with, driving with a 3 month out of date car inspection sticker, getting arrested....)

More on this coming soon...

Song for the New Year

I must make a choice
A tough decision
Listen to my voice
Should I give in
To temptation, admiration
One leads to myself
The other some one else
Just an empty shell
Just an empty shell
It's harder than it seems
When you're told that
All your hopes and dreams
Are yours to hold if
You just give them
What's expected
Something they can sell
Put upon a shelf
That I am not for sale
I am not for sale
[Chorus:]I here a voice inside
It's grown into a scream
I'm not the next of them
I am the first of me
'cause I can't live the lie
I am just what you see
I'm not the next of them
I am the first of me

If I can't refuse
The price they offer
I am sure to lose
And I will suffer
Sell my soul to make a profit
All I have to do
Is make believe it's true
That's something I can't do
That's something I can't do
[Chorus]

So when the waiting's gone
It's time to face the truth
You know your good enough
Deep down inside of you
You've finally woken up
If only just to prove
You are born to lead the way
And be the first of you

-Hoobastank, "First of Me"