1.08.2006

Deja vu

Four months ago I ended a six month relationship (possibly hinted at in my entry "him"? ;) ). Now, in the grand scheme of things, that whole 10 months isn't very long, the six nearly laughable. However... it was my first relationship. My first boyfriend. My first date. That creates a bit of an attatchment.

With that background information, I'll get to the point.

I made some mistakes during that relationship. I treated my friends poorly, especially my best friend. Now, I won't claim she's some beacon of perfection, she did a pretty similar thing to me just months before: you know what girls do, focus too much on the guy, forget their friends. I swear, we don't realize we're doing it. Tell us. Please.
But I went too far. When she was so upset she was sobbing too hard to walk, I went with him instead of her. He was even the cause of her upset. I know I should have gone with her, but the situation threw me so much (a situation a little too personal and complex to explain fully today) that I stayed with him. I hurt the best friendship I have ever had. I have that friendship back, but the damage done that night has yet to heal.

Now, I have another chance. Another boy expressing interest, asking me to go out with him. I am afraid of making mistakes again. She's afraid I'll hurt her, abandon her again. And I do not know what I'll do.

I don't think this will be a serious relationship. He needs someone to be there for him, and I need someone to be with outside my everyday social circles. I think he can understand me, and I know I can support him.

Advice always welcome.



And l>t-
You are so sweet saying you like my blog. Thank you. I'm just trying to write what I really think and feel, and maybe exercise my creative writing skills while I'm at it (ie - "unforgettable). I don't really know whether or not I have anything to actually say.
"I would advise ALL young people to Lust after whoever, but think practical about the ones you have long term relationships with. " - Amen. I fully agree. This is why I like talking to adults. (**stop** **think** Holy crap, I'm an adult!!)

4 comments:

Anonymous said...
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Anonymous said...

Took these 2 out, figured I'm not the one who should be dishing out relationship advice

..in any case, I'm glad to make friends with ya. ;)

Count of Monte Christo had great fight scenes..I love how the hero surpassed his best friend in the end.

concerned citizen said...

Nothing ventured, nothing gained is how the saying goes.
Unless your friend has designs on the same guy, or a secret crush on you, she should be O.K.

Starry Lady said...

hm, no secret crushes as far as I can tell. She says she was just being emotional... I guess pregnant women get that way ;)